what i came on here to write!! b4 i was sidetracked
Well this has been my life sice i last talked to anybody! I have 3 jobs, two i work regularly and one i work whenever they need me. Kevin is buying this house from his mom and we are paying off the morgage. His cousin and her bf(jamaal butler) and their kid is living upstairs paying rent to help pay off the morgage. I dont have a cell phone yet but i wanna get one after i trade my car in. I am saving up money for a car I want a graphite gray, volkswagon cabrio, 5spd, with black leather interior. I am helping my sister right now out with her bills and hoping like hell my baby will be ok:) My dad said i should adopt her baby when it comes out. I would! But anyway..... hmmmmm.... Kevin and i have been talking bout, well gettin married having kids..... I said i wanna wait till im at least 22 but getting married i dont know honestly i think for both im ready now! but yea thatd b stupid! I LOVE HIM SOOOOOO MUCH!!!!! I am just kinda scared i dont know i mean i am 19 and there arent very many people who will let me stop thinking bout marriage and kids! i just dont get why does his family ask me aboiut it but they never ask him???? That really confuses me! I dont know realy my life lately revolves around work bills work my sister work our relationship work work work bills. YEA lots of nothing! Hmmmm.... I wonder why hasnt he ever told me when hed like to get married and start a family? Another interesting thingy! Sorry i just got off werk at the restaurant and i helped out in the ice cream shop fun stuff i werk again tommorow but fewer hours! thank goodness! haha oh yea i might start goin back to church i have gone since i was baptised well i went a few times after that but not many. i got to a nondenominational church thats were i was baptised i dont like the catholic church they wouldnt baptise me or my sister when we were little cause we are bastard children not only that i hate the services they are long and BORING!!!! at my church it is awesome we stand sing dance yell PRAISE THE LORD and all that fun stuff!!! no im not nuts i like it and a lot of people do! well idont know i havent eaten in 9 hours im hungry good nite. By the way i dont expect anyone to respond i write in here to get things off my mind! i find it easier than to talk to people! I love it. I am sorry if i ever say anything u dont liek or whatever but hey shit happens and i cant help it i only tell whats on my mind!!