Freak Out
So things have been slightly crazy in my life as of late. I haven't heard from Adam in 3 weeks, which is pretty much killing me. So what do I do? I get drunk Saturday night, call his cellphone and tell him how much I miss him and love him *doh*. I really do miss him, and sadly enough I do love him, it just sucks that he's not here. Moving on to the other boy in my life....Rex. Yeah yeah, you all have been hearing me bitch about Rex but things are back to being complicated. He tried to do stuff with me again and I told him that I deserved better than to be his little girl on the side because HELLO HE HAS A GF! Anyway on Sunday at our choir performance I hear that he broke up with his girlfriend of over a year *jaw drop*. Now I'm very confused as to what to do because I miss him and I want there to be something there. At the same time I have half of my friends that don't like him, but I'm not going to let that effect my decision. I'm willing to give it a try between us, which that in itself is a shocker. I know this all sounds confusing, I mean I love Adam, and I plan to be here when he gets back, but until then, I can't put my life on hold to wait for him when I don't know if he even feels the same way. So I guess you could say that Rex is my stand in until Adam gets home...*sigh*