back in the LDN
Yeah so I came back to uni like half a week before start of term so i could spend as much time with this girl who id been getting on really well with a bit before christmas. i was gonna ask her out but just wanted to wait until after new years. so i get back and find out shes going out with my best friend, the 3 of us would smoke together, thats why she knows us so well. so yeah that was a bit of a kick in the balls but im ok about it. actually, im kinda glad i dont have a gf so i dont have to always think of places to take her out to haha. so yeah im fine with it and i can chat to the bloke just like normal - in fact at breakdancing we had a right laugh like wed never done before. so yeah on his own i can chat to him and just joke like normal, but she is making it so hard to get on like normal. she never says anything to me whether shes with the bloke or other ppl or on her own. in fact it seems like shes avoiding me :s i heard last night as i was walking up the stairs (completely monged out and having not had sleep in over 24hrs haha) and i heard some people a few floors up and i heard this girl "whisper" to her friend "it might be duncan!" in like an agitated whisper that wasnt really all that quiet.. so i just carried on like i didnt hear it - said hi to her friend as he carried on coming down but i think she did just literally hide round the corner so she wouldnt have to walk past me.. i mean come on, its not that big a deal! then when were having a smoke (which isnt often nowadays - weve all cut back) its like she doesnt want to interact, ike she often tries to get her gay friend to sit next to me so she doesnt have to. and its like ummm come on, just have a smoke and a laugh and forget about everything. but yeah also with the smoking they stopped inviting me for smokes a few days before they started cutting back... which is just rude lol cus i knew theyd be smoking cus id walk past and like her gay friend was going to the blokes flat and stuff. i suppose its a good thing me not smoking, and although i had one last nite it was the first in ages and im not gonna get into last terms habits. so yeah i dunno what to do.. like whether to a)talk to her about it b)talk to her bf about it c)talk to her gay friend about it or d)just leave it and see if it blows over. all id say is just for her to relax a bit and not actually worry about being around me cus we were good friends before and im not mad or anything cus i know how well they get on. i dont think i should leave it tho because that would seem a bit like im gonna mad at her forever or something and dont wanna even see her - which would be wrong. hmmm anyway ill get it sorted some way.. im thinking talk to the gay friend to like build the foundations back.
yeah so onto other life stuff, new term so a few new modules. i got asked to do some research and a presentation in my first buddhism tutorial/lecture by email, so i just ignored it and didnt go haha. ill go next week tho. just as long as they know i dont like working. then i missed my art of east asia because i think i slept in. but i went to the south and southeast art which was better than i thought. i thought we were gonna have this boring american woman but instead it was this idian woman who was OK. didnt go to 3 hours of tutorials today tho haha couldnt be bothered. went to the gym yesterday (got in for free due to technical problems) and my fitness is improving already. also breakdancing on wednesday was so much fun and gets you so fit! but yeah my plan is to go to the gym most days because i often have like late morning lectures then a few hours until another lecture and its a good way to fill time. and it will make me even more of a sexy beast haha.
going to fabric tonight YAY!!! i think the bloke and his gf will be going - well the bloke is definate but the girl may back out of it because of me... but yeah its gonna be so nice to get utterly fucked up fabric is the best club ever haha. im thinking of avoiding the drum n bass room tho i want some really trippy house stuff from the other room because its a bit more chilled out so you could some good vibes. maybe i will talk to the girl tonight when im fucked enough. but will have to be careful not to go too far and talk too much hehe.
but then tomoro my parents are coming to london and taking me out to lunch before they go to some exhibition. so thats gonna be a harsh morning waking up after pills, not having any weed to smoke, then going out with them... hopefully after that i can get a nice big smoke and chill out.
cant really think of anything else to say, so ill leave it for now. damn msn isnt working on this machine but ive been sat here too long to change haha.
yeah so onto other life stuff, new term so a few new modules. i got asked to do some research and a presentation in my first buddhism tutorial/lecture by email, so i just ignored it and didnt go haha. ill go next week tho. just as long as they know i dont like working. then i missed my art of east asia because i think i slept in. but i went to the south and southeast art which was better than i thought. i thought we were gonna have this boring american woman but instead it was this idian woman who was OK. didnt go to 3 hours of tutorials today tho haha couldnt be bothered. went to the gym yesterday (got in for free due to technical problems) and my fitness is improving already. also breakdancing on wednesday was so much fun and gets you so fit! but yeah my plan is to go to the gym most days because i often have like late morning lectures then a few hours until another lecture and its a good way to fill time. and it will make me even more of a sexy beast haha.
going to fabric tonight YAY!!! i think the bloke and his gf will be going - well the bloke is definate but the girl may back out of it because of me... but yeah its gonna be so nice to get utterly fucked up fabric is the best club ever haha. im thinking of avoiding the drum n bass room tho i want some really trippy house stuff from the other room because its a bit more chilled out so you could some good vibes. maybe i will talk to the girl tonight when im fucked enough. but will have to be careful not to go too far and talk too much hehe.
but then tomoro my parents are coming to london and taking me out to lunch before they go to some exhibition. so thats gonna be a harsh morning waking up after pills, not having any weed to smoke, then going out with them... hopefully after that i can get a nice big smoke and chill out.
cant really think of anything else to say, so ill leave it for now. damn msn isnt working on this machine but ive been sat here too long to change haha.