Everyone knows I'm in over my head. . .
I think I've realized my problem. I hate the way people conform to society, but then every now and then I realize that I'm one of those people, and I hate myself for it. But it's different this time. I've never though it so strongly before. I really do hate everything. I hate what society made me and I hate that I did it without a fight.
*sigh*
Maybe I should just move into the woods and do what Freud says; be myself, because being 100% without a doubt alone is the only way that would happen. At the same time though, that isn't what I want. I want to prove to myself that I don't have to do what everyone expects of me, and I want to make sure other people see that. I wanna prove everyone wrong, do the extraordinary, walk on water (metaphorically speaking of course). I know that sounds selfish, but like I said, I can't help it.
I really think I am just gonna up and ditch this place sometimes, I have no idea when though.
*sigh*
Maybe I should just move into the woods and do what Freud says; be myself, because being 100% without a doubt alone is the only way that would happen. At the same time though, that isn't what I want. I want to prove to myself that I don't have to do what everyone expects of me, and I want to make sure other people see that. I wanna prove everyone wrong, do the extraordinary, walk on water (metaphorically speaking of course). I know that sounds selfish, but like I said, I can't help it.
I really think I am just gonna up and ditch this place sometimes, I have no idea when though.