long post. pointless post.

[dumpie]

so, i pretty much said it tonight, and after i did, i regretted it. forget the fact that ive wanted to say it for so long, to anyone, because saying it made it real. before i truly acknowledged it, it was fairly easy to push out of my mind. now, its not so easy

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[inversethunder]

The best thing I can really say to you with my groggy 4am mind is to try to stay optimistic... ironic coming from me, yes. If you can stay positive, at least as positive as you can, because I know firsthand that this is no easy task... but it can be better for you and for your parents... I would not think they would like to see their little girl living miserably for their sakes, although the concern is surely appreciated. by all means, don't fake optimism or happiness, but try your hardest to feel genuinely that way, by doing things with them, keeping them involved strongly in their lives. i am sure that this can make everybody, even yourself happier...

and if you ever need a friend to talk to dernit, we might have drifted a bit apart over these last couple years but i am still here. i can never be as close as a family member but i would like to think you and i have experienced enough together good and bad in the past to at least be someone you can always come to, and vice versa...

send me a message sometime when my fat arse is actually on... and we really ought to plan an afternoon or something in a lansing mall or something soon.

and now my butt is going to bed! 4:30 is late and i hate the sun and must slumber before it arises. and if anything at all sounds offensive or like.. bossy or anything i apologize, cuz words dun come tuh me well when i is sleepy like.