lets pretend
lets pretend that were okay.
Lets hide the scars.
Lets lie about our self medication.
lets tell everyone that everything is fine.
I'd slice my wrist but it would show a mark.
I'd overdose but we did Betty ford already... tragic I don't do well.
I see myself all the time going through with it. Jumping infront of cars, trains. Pulling the trigger, slicing myself. It's almost as if I ran out of ideas of killing myself. Living has become such a bordom.. And to live for others to suck me dry... it's endless. 'Give me this... can I have that'.. it's all I hear. I'd be dead and it wouldn't matter.
But lets pretend... pretend that I don't think this way.
Pretend that I am something important. Pretend that no matter what I'm loved.
Lets play pretend jimmy. Pretend that your not unhappy.
Pretend that death is no longer and option.
Lets hide the scars.
Lets lie about our self medication.
lets tell everyone that everything is fine.
I'd slice my wrist but it would show a mark.
I'd overdose but we did Betty ford already... tragic I don't do well.
I see myself all the time going through with it. Jumping infront of cars, trains. Pulling the trigger, slicing myself. It's almost as if I ran out of ideas of killing myself. Living has become such a bordom.. And to live for others to suck me dry... it's endless. 'Give me this... can I have that'.. it's all I hear. I'd be dead and it wouldn't matter.
But lets pretend... pretend that I don't think this way.
Pretend that I am something important. Pretend that no matter what I'm loved.
Lets play pretend jimmy. Pretend that your not unhappy.
Pretend that death is no longer and option.