I've decidided
I've decidided to give up. To let go and walk away. I've decidided to end it all so I can be free of all this mess. I cry at night to fall asleeep. I Cry in the morning so I will function. i cry during the day to make it through. I CRY everyday to remind myself that i'M STILL alive. I've tried everything from pain killers. I'VE DOne everything from drugs to booz. I've numed myself so I won't feel... so I won't feel this emptyness. I kill myself to smile again... I kill myself so I'll be happy again. I kill myself so I can be free.. free of this hell i'M in.. this hell I breath.
There are no friends, there is no LOVE. I gave everything you have asked me of. There is no trust when all is lies. There is US when it's all ABOUT YOU. I'd given my whole and you still want more, I told you I'd DIE and I'm here to bleed. Your a selfish fuck whod watch me slice.. out of your sick fucking enjoyment to know you sucedded.
But iv'e decided.. yes I make the rules. NOW i'VE decideded to end this game.
I've decideded to pull the strings... I'll kill myself before you can.
No more will I let you control my fate.. no more shall I let you watch me fight this endless war. there is now rainbow on ther other side of your cloud.. and I refuse to let you toss me around. No pill will trick me into thinking that everything will be ok. No drug will make all my troubles go away. I know the truth and I've seen it staring back at me... I'm not happy. Never was and never will be. So why continue to pretent to be?
I've decidided... that I can't go through with it.
There are no friends, there is no LOVE. I gave everything you have asked me of. There is no trust when all is lies. There is US when it's all ABOUT YOU. I'd given my whole and you still want more, I told you I'd DIE and I'm here to bleed. Your a selfish fuck whod watch me slice.. out of your sick fucking enjoyment to know you sucedded.
But iv'e decided.. yes I make the rules. NOW i'VE decideded to end this game.
I've decideded to pull the strings... I'll kill myself before you can.
No more will I let you control my fate.. no more shall I let you watch me fight this endless war. there is now rainbow on ther other side of your cloud.. and I refuse to let you toss me around. No pill will trick me into thinking that everything will be ok. No drug will make all my troubles go away. I know the truth and I've seen it staring back at me... I'm not happy. Never was and never will be. So why continue to pretent to be?
I've decidided... that I can't go through with it.