I really don't like school anymore
I just want to drop out, but I'm so freaking close to the end. But then I think "What's the point?" I have no desire whatsoever to be a pharmacy tech anymore. I'm getting that aching feeling again to move away. Anywhere but here. I realized yesterday, well I realized this a long time ago, but it became real yesterday, that the spirit is no longer with me. The fire that burned in my soul for so long is gone. Completely out. It still burned a little, like a dying fire that still going, but finally just died. I feel numb. All I've ever known is the church, if I don't have that what purpose do I have in my life? I know a lot of you won't understand, but I know some of you will. I don't want to be with my family anymore, and everybody at work thinks I'm a lesbian. Ok not everyone. But someone is spreading around a rumor that me and Amity are going out and that really bothers me. Not the fact that they think that we're dating because if they think that they're dumb, but the fact that people are spreading rumors.
I gave this guy I work with my phone number. Why? I don't know. Do I like him? Not really, but he is nice. Will it turn out to be another Kenny fiasco? Very likely. But if anything happens I'm planning on quitting Wal-mart soon anyway. But we will see. Why did Brian stop talking to me? Who knows. It makes me sad. Maybe it's just as well. Crap I'm late for class. Break was up 5 mins ago....
I gave this guy I work with my phone number. Why? I don't know. Do I like him? Not really, but he is nice. Will it turn out to be another Kenny fiasco? Very likely. But if anything happens I'm planning on quitting Wal-mart soon anyway. But we will see. Why did Brian stop talking to me? Who knows. It makes me sad. Maybe it's just as well. Crap I'm late for class. Break was up 5 mins ago....