Only a fool would think that

[dumblondedrum3r]

You know, I hate rollar coaster rides. The whole feel like your gonna throw up, the loop de loops, the whole feeling of falling down. I only pretend to like them so as to not look like a wuss. Some I do like, the baby ones... But my life is just one big loop de loop. It seems like it's gonna be an easy ride, but then everything just comes at you fast and you just wanna close your eyes tight and just hold on. I don't want to hold on anymore. I don't know what's right and what's not. It's not just this whole guy thing like some people might think, it's everything. I'm bored with everything. I'm sick of secrets. I HATE it when people don't tell me anything even though they think it's dumb. And some people I just want to kick in the face with a football cleat, 10 times.

And then I meet this really amazing guy, yet... And my friends find him somewhat annoying... Which sometimes he is... It's hard to just be friends when you want to fill a void in your soul, which I have ALWAYS felt, but couldn't explain to anyone. I thought it went away. No... Still there... I'm gonna quit Wal-Mart. It's a good place and everything, it's just the same routine every day, in and out. I have to go to the doctor's today. Maybe I'll tell him about my headaches too. I get them a lot since I was 8. They couldn't find anything wrong then, but maybe they will now. I dunno. I don't know much of anything anymore.