crazy turkey day
man this was a nuts day. i dont even like thanksgiving. i wasnt even going to come down to fremont this year, but decided i had to with all the drama going on.
first of all, i really wanted to see my mom... yea i miss her. we got along so very horribly until i moved away, and now when i see her its really good. go figure. my dads in michigan seeing his mom (though he thinks of it as more of an obligation than a vacation) because shes getting old.
and my grandpa is dying. i saw him in the hospital today...man it looks bad. ive never had anyone really close to me die before. the closest anyone has been was a friend from high school who i hadnt talked to in years, and then a good friend of a good friend who i only had met twice. the doctors are doing everything they can, but i think he just wants to let go. he looks like hes in a lot of pain. my grandma and mom think he was kinda waiting to see me, my brother and my mom one last time, so it really could be any day now. but who knows. i dont really know what to do.
it was a really strange dinner too. with my dad out of state, and my grandpa at the hospital, there were only a few of us, and my grandma was tearing up every couple minutes. we didnt even really cook, my grandma just bought an already cooked meal from safeway. it was just a sad day.... i wonder what christmas is going to be like.
i cant wait til tomorrow, i can go get james from the airport. its weird how much i miss that boy, and we've only been dating for about two months now. i just cant wait to see him, and all my family up in chico.
...i need a hug
first of all, i really wanted to see my mom... yea i miss her. we got along so very horribly until i moved away, and now when i see her its really good. go figure. my dads in michigan seeing his mom (though he thinks of it as more of an obligation than a vacation) because shes getting old.
and my grandpa is dying. i saw him in the hospital today...man it looks bad. ive never had anyone really close to me die before. the closest anyone has been was a friend from high school who i hadnt talked to in years, and then a good friend of a good friend who i only had met twice. the doctors are doing everything they can, but i think he just wants to let go. he looks like hes in a lot of pain. my grandma and mom think he was kinda waiting to see me, my brother and my mom one last time, so it really could be any day now. but who knows. i dont really know what to do.
it was a really strange dinner too. with my dad out of state, and my grandpa at the hospital, there were only a few of us, and my grandma was tearing up every couple minutes. we didnt even really cook, my grandma just bought an already cooked meal from safeway. it was just a sad day.... i wonder what christmas is going to be like.
i cant wait til tomorrow, i can go get james from the airport. its weird how much i miss that boy, and we've only been dating for about two months now. i just cant wait to see him, and all my family up in chico.
...i need a hug