TIRED

[dumbfounded123]

yeah i am tired of having to deal with other ppls shit... this my time to bitch about things now and i don't care what ya'll have to say cuz i am in a pissy ass mood.. things are just starting to bug the hell out of me.. and pretty much lost the only guy who i could talk to but o fuckin well! it was for the best ne ways... but yeah i would to talk all ya'll chicas but it don't work.. dunno y but it don't... i am tired of ppl whinning and complaining about guyz!!! its like everything that comes out of everyones mouth now dayz has to do with dicks in some short away!!! and its like i have a hard time hanging out with ppl now bcuz everything has being getting to me.. and i just can't spill the beans on here bcuz it would get out and i would feel sooo horribly bad.. It like Rob just called me wanting to kno if i could go up north with him for a weekend to a cabin with his family.. over valentines day.. i would like to and all but i have a boyfriend that i love and i kno he would not like the fact of me going up there.. its like i kno nothing will happen but he has a problem trusting some guys around me and i don't blame him... and its over valentines weekend.. sure i have to whole week off to spend time with him but its v-day and i would like to spend the whole day with his... by our selves.. but i kno that will never happen bcuz we are never alone! not even at our own houses.. i kno both of our parents dont trust us that much to leave us alone for that long.. i wonder what they are going to do when i got camping with josh over the summer or he comes up north with me for long period of times... since i have to move up there in all.. which blows the major ass like no one understands.. i just can't stand things ne more.. they been getting to me.. and ppl! omg PPL! i can't stand being around ppl ne more.. i dunno if its just bcuz everyone has been acting fake, being some one else, talking fucked up, being spoilled, stuck up, PMS mood, annoying, or what! its just like bam! Arleen has the face reality and grow up while all her friends and ppl around her are getting younger and younger by the minute... it doesn't make since.. its like i no longer have fun.. i have to get a job so i can pay for my car, i watch a fucking 10 year old that pisses himself, deal with my lil bro and his growing up problems, i work in the aud when ever i have to, having damn ppl fellow me around school and wont leave me alone!, and dealing with all the other shit in my life like moving. you guys don't understand how much stresses i have on myself and that is one of the WORST things that could be with me right now.. i never get to relax.. my winter break is going to be all about me and relaxing.. i am not going to care about ne one else or ne one else problems.. well except my bf but he is me, and i am him.. with out him right now i think i would be in a box... <--- if you don't get it think about the the things you have and you want and take it away. and i kno all this problem sounds soo concede but i don't care ne more.. y should i! its like i try to put everyone elses feeling before mine and maybe i should just stop.. i deal with everyone elses problems just fine for them but its like when i need help no one is there or no one understand or no one can help! maybe thats just me but thats how it seems.. and i am tired of bitching now i am going to sit in my room listen to music and wait for my boyfriend to call me bcuz i need some one to talk to..

ooo yeah note from yesterday: Happy 3 months to me and josh.. good day other then we had to deal with mike and jasmine the whole night! if they werent pissed at each other they where in the other room making out... damn they just need to make up their minds and even figure out if its going to work out since he wants to kill her ever 5 seconds of the day!