guilt...
i feel bad bcuz i have been soo busy up here i have kindof neglected my friends.. i can't call down state bcuz the bill was to high all bcuz of me.. so i have lost that privlage.. can't drive my car down till my dad gives me 1500 for it... which he will never do and like none of them can drive so they can't come up here... every time i come down i never get to see them bcuz i am to busy dealing with family and getting used to being gone...i feel bad.. like i want to call all the time but its like i never have time.. i never get online me more except at school and they block chating so like the only way i can really keep in touch is through this and no one even cares that i type this shit out so i am giving up and making so like on specail ppl can read i think.. ppl who care... or whatever.. i give up.. i am leaving... bye