little tid bits and rants...
sometimes i wonder if i should write certain things in here becuz its not reali "safe" now...or maybe no one reads this at all... who knows...
there is a kind of pain and hurt that u feel...where yur heart and your lungs just tense up...and u cant breathe... something that onli two people have caused me...i guess i am lucky that the number is only two...but it is not a nice feeling...
when i meet people...i usually have no reason not to like them or talk to them about anything...like..after i befriend them and all..and we are friends...i usually trust people pretty easily..which i have realized is a bad thing...i didnt use to think it was so bad. but now i do, some people will take advantage of that trust..and they will abuse it. and its onli taken me 19 years to realize this...
i used to think i knew someone...someone i used to respect... someone who, i thought, had respect for me...that is all over now though...definately over...forever...and that is sad becuz i left it..with love...but now its lost...and it can never be regained...and i reali dont even want it bak... things are too complicated now... things will never be ok. and im reali quite fine with that... i wouldnt want pretend to be on good terms..when ive lost all respect for them aniways.
i feel like i am living in a movie..a drama...(thats wat jen compared it to..jen. i love u chica.)
Sometimes u just gotta dance yur frustrations out! ill be workn on that tomorrow nite. if anione wants to join, come along! its FREE with CoLLEge Id.
there is a kind of pain and hurt that u feel...where yur heart and your lungs just tense up...and u cant breathe... something that onli two people have caused me...i guess i am lucky that the number is only two...but it is not a nice feeling...
when i meet people...i usually have no reason not to like them or talk to them about anything...like..after i befriend them and all..and we are friends...i usually trust people pretty easily..which i have realized is a bad thing...i didnt use to think it was so bad. but now i do, some people will take advantage of that trust..and they will abuse it. and its onli taken me 19 years to realize this...
i used to think i knew someone...someone i used to respect... someone who, i thought, had respect for me...that is all over now though...definately over...forever...and that is sad becuz i left it..with love...but now its lost...and it can never be regained...and i reali dont even want it bak... things are too complicated now... things will never be ok. and im reali quite fine with that... i wouldnt want pretend to be on good terms..when ive lost all respect for them aniways.
i feel like i am living in a movie..a drama...(thats wat jen compared it to..jen. i love u chica.)
Sometimes u just gotta dance yur frustrations out! ill be workn on that tomorrow nite. if anione wants to join, come along! its FREE with CoLLEge Id.