I can't feel anymore, but I can fake it forever
So much shit has happened in the past week. It's all been kinda shitty. Between fights with friends, mistakes people made, my job that is killing me day by day, being nagged about being "too fat", being yelled at for not having my car payment, being yelled at for everything else that I've failed to do, deciding I'm not going to my Senior Prom, and realizing I have no faith in anything anymore-- I feel like crap. You know that song by Nickelback that says "Something's gotta go wrong cuz I'm feeling way too damn good"? Well... think the exact opposite and write a song about it and there's my life right now.
O yeah and to all my friends-- sorry if you're upset and I seem like I don't care or I'm not listening. I'm not gonna lie, I probably am not listening because I really don't give a shit about anything anymore. I've been being a big bitch lately because I just don't care what people think or if they're mad at me or hate me forever. Basically, I've stopped caring about everything. Maybe not everyone, but definitely everything. People's problems don't really concern me anymore or pull any heart strings. I'm sorry.
I'm talking to Stacy online and she just used the word "numb" to describe this and that's exactly how I feel. I just don't care.
I wish I could learn to care again. I want to feel again... numbness isn't happiness.
O yeah and to all my friends-- sorry if you're upset and I seem like I don't care or I'm not listening. I'm not gonna lie, I probably am not listening because I really don't give a shit about anything anymore. I've been being a big bitch lately because I just don't care what people think or if they're mad at me or hate me forever. Basically, I've stopped caring about everything. Maybe not everyone, but definitely everything. People's problems don't really concern me anymore or pull any heart strings. I'm sorry.
I'm talking to Stacy online and she just used the word "numb" to describe this and that's exactly how I feel. I just don't care.
I wish I could learn to care again. I want to feel again... numbness isn't happiness.