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aww tonight, i took a bath while listening to ryan cabrera. it was cute. hehe
then wrote and essay for dice while talking to people online. yeah, then my parents start bitching at me again about my classes for next year. im so sick of it. seriously, they are trying to live their lives thru mine. even my dad said that once about my mom. its cuz my mom dropped out of high school and my dad dropped out of college to go to vietnam. and then they have a child who actually does decent in school and they push me until i jus cant take it anymore and i give up. they want me to take only classes that will help me in my future career as a doctor thing. i dont even know exactly what i want to do for god sakes!!! and then my mom wants me to have senior privelege so i can either dual enroll at FAU or get a job. anddd then she wants me to take classes over the summer and the summer after my senior year, she thinks i should go to college right away cuz its easier to adjust. all i know is there is no way in hell that she is going to make me give up my last summer with all my friends. fuck that. and i dont want senior privelege, as gay as that sounds, cuz most of my friends are a year or even two years younger than me. (cuz i fucking hate most of the juniors) so i'd rather take and extra class and stay and hang out with my friends for the little time that i have left cuz i know for a fact i will never see most of these people again. dont get me wrong, im planning on taking my senior year seriously, but im gunna have fun doing what I WANT TO DO. i finally realized that im never gunna be in the top 10 at school. im not smart enough. im stuck at 24. so why over stress myself by taking lots of AP classes when its not going to help as much? im only going to take two AP classes and 4 honors classes. i dont care. i'll still get into a good school. besides, im not longer trying to get into the University of Wisconsin Madison. im going to go to a florida school with lauri cuz her dad said he will buy us an apartment if we both get accpeted to the same florida school. and then after taking the normal 4 years of college, ill go off to a better school to go thru graduate shool and eventually get my PhD. so yeah. im sick of my mom yelling at me to go see my guidance counselor. shes only gunna tell me to take on as much work as I think i can handle. its a waste of time. so i finally told me mom that if she wants me to go see my counselor so bad, that she can write out a list of questions for me to ask then.
god...and then i was writing an essay for english, and i finished and i started to update this and she walks by, looks at the screen and say "oh yeah u look like you're really busy"...um excuse me. ive been in school for 8 hours and i came home and did homework from 6 until 9. hmm. no of course i didnt work hard....my ass.
the ironic thing, i jus wrote my essay on how influential my mom is in my life.yeahhh.
--sorry bout the rant-- <3
then wrote and essay for dice while talking to people online. yeah, then my parents start bitching at me again about my classes for next year. im so sick of it. seriously, they are trying to live their lives thru mine. even my dad said that once about my mom. its cuz my mom dropped out of high school and my dad dropped out of college to go to vietnam. and then they have a child who actually does decent in school and they push me until i jus cant take it anymore and i give up. they want me to take only classes that will help me in my future career as a doctor thing. i dont even know exactly what i want to do for god sakes!!! and then my mom wants me to have senior privelege so i can either dual enroll at FAU or get a job. anddd then she wants me to take classes over the summer and the summer after my senior year, she thinks i should go to college right away cuz its easier to adjust. all i know is there is no way in hell that she is going to make me give up my last summer with all my friends. fuck that. and i dont want senior privelege, as gay as that sounds, cuz most of my friends are a year or even two years younger than me. (cuz i fucking hate most of the juniors) so i'd rather take and extra class and stay and hang out with my friends for the little time that i have left cuz i know for a fact i will never see most of these people again. dont get me wrong, im planning on taking my senior year seriously, but im gunna have fun doing what I WANT TO DO. i finally realized that im never gunna be in the top 10 at school. im not smart enough. im stuck at 24. so why over stress myself by taking lots of AP classes when its not going to help as much? im only going to take two AP classes and 4 honors classes. i dont care. i'll still get into a good school. besides, im not longer trying to get into the University of Wisconsin Madison. im going to go to a florida school with lauri cuz her dad said he will buy us an apartment if we both get accpeted to the same florida school. and then after taking the normal 4 years of college, ill go off to a better school to go thru graduate shool and eventually get my PhD. so yeah. im sick of my mom yelling at me to go see my guidance counselor. shes only gunna tell me to take on as much work as I think i can handle. its a waste of time. so i finally told me mom that if she wants me to go see my counselor so bad, that she can write out a list of questions for me to ask then.
god...and then i was writing an essay for english, and i finished and i started to update this and she walks by, looks at the screen and say "oh yeah u look like you're really busy"...um excuse me. ive been in school for 8 hours and i came home and did homework from 6 until 9. hmm. no of course i didnt work hard....my ass.
the ironic thing, i jus wrote my essay on how influential my mom is in my life.yeahhh.
--sorry bout the rant-- <3