wow..i still cant believe it
these past few days have really been unreal..it seriously feels like were living in some type of tv show..whenever you hear about things on the news..you never suspect something like it would happen in your neighborhood..at your school..to some of your friends..the events of 12/2/04 will never be forgotten and have changed just about every kid at south's life forever..ben lasner RIP you were such a good kid..so nice..you were always there to talk to..it was just me and you..and the 12 year olds..i wish we'd talked a litle more over these past few summers but we werent always both on the bus..i remember you talking about what kind of car you wanted and how you couldnt wait to drive..and how much you loved football..and i remember talking about all the old teachers we hated and you always told me which ones to watch out for..and i loved scaring the lil 6th graders saying WATCH OUT FOR THIS ONE..aww i miss you so muchh..ily
you will never be forgotton..summers just wont be the same without youu
wow today school just sucked..it was so weird and depressing..im never EVER going to forget this day..everyone crying and hugging..nothign seemed right..i wasnt myself i couldnt concentrate on anything..i couldnt even take the math test i just walked around and was thinking and i finally wound up in the library with keenan and we talked about stuff and that jus tmade me worried and sad but we talked to keenans step dad whose a doctor and said buffo was gonna be ok so that made me feel a little better but he couldnt comment on scotty so i got worriedd..the rest of the day i just totally zoned out and was thinking alot about how i didnt even get to say goodbye..i hadnt really talked to him that much since camp ended..i just always assumed that he would be there next year =[ ..8th period i couldnt stand it and i went to the library and some ppl took it as like a joke which i think was wrong..even if you didnt know him i can see being upset it was such a freak accident and like its so depressing but like ppl shudnt have been in there just to cut class like some people were..ugh i keep thinking about the first day of camp next year..when ben's campers are going to all ask..wheres ben? especially alex who nigina remembered loved ben and looked up to him like he was an older brother..what do you say to him when he says "wheres my fav councelorrr!!!???"
ughh after school bball was really weird..everyone was upset and peterson didnt really handle the situation well..i have to admit he was alot better that usual but some people were really upset and he like yelled at us or like made fun of us..that didnt really help..but i was actually glad to be there..i needed something to take my mind off things atleast for a little while..i came home and talked to nigina who just foudn out and yeah people are still first finding out and i feel horriblee...but thank god tonight me and jenna went to westchester medical to see scott..omg just seeing him made me feel better..and talking to him and he was acting like his usual self and omg knowing that hes going to be ok just feels so much better..and so many ppl were there to see him and i finally found out the real story..but im not posting it on here just incase any facts get changed around or i misunderstood anything..but the important thing is scottys gonna be ok =] and buffo should be fine too hes getting realeased from the hospital tomorrow..and scotty should be home in a week
wow these events i think have really changed me..and people that dont know what happened shud just stop fucking talking shit..i would never say anything against scotty or ben or buffo ..i was fucking friends with ben and i love scotty i would NEVER say anything against him..after i visit him in the hospital for 2 hours dont fucking accuse me of talking shit about him!
but for all my TRUE friendss..thank you for being there..you really helped me in such a hard time..ive never gone thru anything like this before and without you i dont think i could have done it
you will never be forgotton..summers just wont be the same without youu
wow today school just sucked..it was so weird and depressing..im never EVER going to forget this day..everyone crying and hugging..nothign seemed right..i wasnt myself i couldnt concentrate on anything..i couldnt even take the math test i just walked around and was thinking and i finally wound up in the library with keenan and we talked about stuff and that jus tmade me worried and sad but we talked to keenans step dad whose a doctor and said buffo was gonna be ok so that made me feel a little better but he couldnt comment on scotty so i got worriedd..the rest of the day i just totally zoned out and was thinking alot about how i didnt even get to say goodbye..i hadnt really talked to him that much since camp ended..i just always assumed that he would be there next year =[ ..8th period i couldnt stand it and i went to the library and some ppl took it as like a joke which i think was wrong..even if you didnt know him i can see being upset it was such a freak accident and like its so depressing but like ppl shudnt have been in there just to cut class like some people were..ugh i keep thinking about the first day of camp next year..when ben's campers are going to all ask..wheres ben? especially alex who nigina remembered loved ben and looked up to him like he was an older brother..what do you say to him when he says "wheres my fav councelorrr!!!???"
ughh after school bball was really weird..everyone was upset and peterson didnt really handle the situation well..i have to admit he was alot better that usual but some people were really upset and he like yelled at us or like made fun of us..that didnt really help..but i was actually glad to be there..i needed something to take my mind off things atleast for a little while..i came home and talked to nigina who just foudn out and yeah people are still first finding out and i feel horriblee...but thank god tonight me and jenna went to westchester medical to see scott..omg just seeing him made me feel better..and talking to him and he was acting like his usual self and omg knowing that hes going to be ok just feels so much better..and so many ppl were there to see him and i finally found out the real story..but im not posting it on here just incase any facts get changed around or i misunderstood anything..but the important thing is scottys gonna be ok =] and buffo should be fine too hes getting realeased from the hospital tomorrow..and scotty should be home in a week
wow these events i think have really changed me..and people that dont know what happened shud just stop fucking talking shit..i would never say anything against scotty or ben or buffo ..i was fucking friends with ben and i love scotty i would NEVER say anything against him..after i visit him in the hospital for 2 hours dont fucking accuse me of talking shit about him!
but for all my TRUE friendss..thank you for being there..you really helped me in such a hard time..ive never gone thru anything like this before and without you i dont think i could have done it