where would I be without my love

[dumb_reminders]

wow ... what a long weekend. yet, I'm kinda happy it's over. if you don't know why then ooh well ... not goin through talking about it. well I'm home alone cuz my rents are in Lacey at my uncles and Gary had the firehouse so yay. not really but bla. ever since lastnight I can't stop thinking about my Aunt Rita and how bad I'm gunna miss her for the holidays and shit. I can't help but think about it. Gary and Heather both said to me lastnight 'ooh just think about all the good memories', but that makes it even worse cuz I know we can't make anymore and we can't talk and laugh about them like we did every year. like her and I would be the ones every year to stuff the mushrooms and dip them in butter. we'd always soak the bread in water for my dads homemade stuffing. every year her and I go through the year when my grandma spilt to gravy all over the table and my Uncle Guy. now as I play her song and think about the good time and how she is gunna be missed so dearly around this time of year I cry becuase I wish she were stillo here to see me so happy with my love and to see my cousins new baby and my aunts new place and just to be here for me for our little talks we used to have. Christmas is going to be so0o hard cuz I most likely will be in Fla with Gary and his family but for me to not be here at all with my family and then my aunt not being here for the holidays is going to be so rough. I know I'll bge able to make it through though cuz now I have my sugar cane. Gary I love you with all my heart and I promise you I will for the rest of my life! you are my life and I'd be lost without you.
:*( well I'm begining to not being able to see the keys ... laters

R.I.P. Rita Daisy 7-31-03 :*(
...Chicago-Colour my world...
As time goes on
I realize
Just what you mean
To me
And now
Now that you’re near
Promise your love
That I’ve waited to share
And dreams
Of our moments together
Color my world with hope of loving you