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u cant judge me...bcuz u dont even kno me. no one has the fuckin right to tell me i dont kno nething about God. they hav no right.
sorry about that...its bugging me.
lately ive been writing songs off the wazoo...like almost everyday. and ill write it, and then might not ever look at it again. 2 days ago, i wrote a song called "a cutting hazard" but literally cried writing it. brb let me go find it....bak. here is sum of it:
"ive cried too many times to count
and half the time i dont kno why
ive cut myself too many times to remember
but the scars r still here
no they dont dissapear like u
so im still sitting here writing about these memories
blacking out periodically, damn its crazy
doesnt it mean nething to u how stranded i am
dribbling down is every thought of u
skribbling down how much i hate u
bcuz wen u cum bak it reminds me how much i cant resist u..."
ya, i screamed during it and i cried. it may not sound too good, but sung w/ the right music really makes u emotional. so now im sitting here lookin thru my compositinon notebook where all my songs r. lets count how many....1...2.....3....erm....38. damn. i could swear there were a lot more.
i wish that sumone who cares, would really just sit down and read each lyric to every song and understand y i act the way i do sumtimes and how i feel. but only sumone REALLY special could look into this book...bcuz ive never shown neone it b4....i mean u hav to b really special...bcuz this is like my fuckin diary. lol.
whoever my muse is...damn they r workin hard.
im gonna go write...i feel inspiration right now.
lyl-jenjen
sorry about that...its bugging me.
lately ive been writing songs off the wazoo...like almost everyday. and ill write it, and then might not ever look at it again. 2 days ago, i wrote a song called "a cutting hazard" but literally cried writing it. brb let me go find it....bak. here is sum of it:
"ive cried too many times to count
and half the time i dont kno why
ive cut myself too many times to remember
but the scars r still here
no they dont dissapear like u
so im still sitting here writing about these memories
blacking out periodically, damn its crazy
doesnt it mean nething to u how stranded i am
dribbling down is every thought of u
skribbling down how much i hate u
bcuz wen u cum bak it reminds me how much i cant resist u..."
ya, i screamed during it and i cried. it may not sound too good, but sung w/ the right music really makes u emotional. so now im sitting here lookin thru my compositinon notebook where all my songs r. lets count how many....1...2.....3....erm....38. damn. i could swear there were a lot more.
i wish that sumone who cares, would really just sit down and read each lyric to every song and understand y i act the way i do sumtimes and how i feel. but only sumone REALLY special could look into this book...bcuz ive never shown neone it b4....i mean u hav to b really special...bcuz this is like my fuckin diary. lol.
whoever my muse is...damn they r workin hard.
im gonna go write...i feel inspiration right now.
lyl-jenjen