Personal conflict....
Well, life has gotten a bit more interesting....
About a week and a half ago, Henry and I had a bit of a slamming against the wall, and I honestly just don't know if I will got past it.....
I found out, from a confession that he told me himself, that he has for the last 8 months has been talking with his ex, and has been saying things along the lines that would imply that he was cheating on me. Now, he says that he hasn't been, but I really have no way to believe him. It just bugs me a lot, and I don't know if I should be as forgiving as I have been. I told him I won't leave him over this, but, next shinanigan, I will. He keeps saying that he was expecting me to leave him, and is surprised I stayed. I just can't help but think if he's really going to learn or change from this experience, because it just doesn't seem like he's tried or taken anything to heart.
I will say that I'm attached, and I that I don't want to leave him, but I don't know how much more of this BS I can take. It always seems when he messes up big time, he expects me to forgive and forget, and just move on, but not be upset when he repeats the behavior. I mean I've been with him for about 5 years now, which is a long time, but when does one just say, "Enough?" I'm stuck, I'll admit it.....
I've been trying not to let it show, but I think it's starting to show. I know he's stressed with his fireworks thing, and I don't want to add more stress to it, but I just don't know what to do.....
About a week and a half ago, Henry and I had a bit of a slamming against the wall, and I honestly just don't know if I will got past it.....
I found out, from a confession that he told me himself, that he has for the last 8 months has been talking with his ex, and has been saying things along the lines that would imply that he was cheating on me. Now, he says that he hasn't been, but I really have no way to believe him. It just bugs me a lot, and I don't know if I should be as forgiving as I have been. I told him I won't leave him over this, but, next shinanigan, I will. He keeps saying that he was expecting me to leave him, and is surprised I stayed. I just can't help but think if he's really going to learn or change from this experience, because it just doesn't seem like he's tried or taken anything to heart.
I will say that I'm attached, and I that I don't want to leave him, but I don't know how much more of this BS I can take. It always seems when he messes up big time, he expects me to forgive and forget, and just move on, but not be upset when he repeats the behavior. I mean I've been with him for about 5 years now, which is a long time, but when does one just say, "Enough?" I'm stuck, I'll admit it.....
I've been trying not to let it show, but I think it's starting to show. I know he's stressed with his fireworks thing, and I don't want to add more stress to it, but I just don't know what to do.....