If cheaters never win, why am I the one alone?
A big part of me wants to totally submerge in college and not surface until the end of the semester. She tells me I'm running away, if i can hear her, I guess i'm not running fast enough.
Things are messy.
I'm in over my head and my head is all over the place. It's been a long, but amazing summer. A very long summer.
I feel like I've changed alot inside. The way I see the world is just different. My heart is different, that I know.
Jay's gone. He leaves for Iraq on Friday. I don't know how to feel about that. Yeah I do but it's easier to pretend that I don't because then i won't feel that way.
My new phrase is, "No time for it." because I don't have alot of time here anymore. If people want to be angry or distant from me I don't have time for it. I'm leaving and no matter how home sick I may get I just wont have the means to be home every weekend, once a month if I am lucky. So if you're going to waste negativity on me go ahead, because I really just have no time for it.
I'm on both ends of the spectrum of feelings right now. Melancholic to elated to anxious. I can taste the changes on my tounge and I am trying to get prepared.
Things are messy.
I'm in over my head and my head is all over the place. It's been a long, but amazing summer. A very long summer.
I feel like I've changed alot inside. The way I see the world is just different. My heart is different, that I know.
Jay's gone. He leaves for Iraq on Friday. I don't know how to feel about that. Yeah I do but it's easier to pretend that I don't because then i won't feel that way.
My new phrase is, "No time for it." because I don't have alot of time here anymore. If people want to be angry or distant from me I don't have time for it. I'm leaving and no matter how home sick I may get I just wont have the means to be home every weekend, once a month if I am lucky. So if you're going to waste negativity on me go ahead, because I really just have no time for it.
I'm on both ends of the spectrum of feelings right now. Melancholic to elated to anxious. I can taste the changes on my tounge and I am trying to get prepared.