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I am very tired right now. I don't know why. I am stuck at my dad's house and unable to go to my Harry Potter party. I am very irritated because of that. It makes me angry. Haha. I am such a nerd.
I got in a fight with my sig. other today. Over something. And then again it was really nothing. He tells me I always push him away. Which is true. To an extent. But I mean, is it such a bad thing to not want to get hurt? Is that being selfish? I guess maybe so. It is just one of the other million concessions you must make to be in a serious but fulfilling relationship. And those concessions just have to be worth it. And it is for me. I just get tired so easily. Giving so much of yourself over to another human being can really get tiring.
But it is rewarding. I don't want to get mushy on everyone like I used to. But I mean you know you care about someone when you're with them and you can think of no where else you'd rather be. You're not just content, you're fulfilled. It is a strange feeling to describe. It's not like complacency, because that entails being satisfied to the current point, and that at some later stage you'll want more. No, this is something quite different.
But, I stop there. I don't like talking about relationships in terms of the future. Tomorrow he may realize he is crazy to love me because I am just too damn complicated for him to even care. So, tonight. Tonight was good. This second is good. This moment is good. And that is all that really matters.
That is my theory anyway. But I am just a complicated, drama queen in walnut creek growing progressively and equally tired and irritated because i want my harry potter and i also want the release of sleep.
well. what are you going to do? more later.
I got in a fight with my sig. other today. Over something. And then again it was really nothing. He tells me I always push him away. Which is true. To an extent. But I mean, is it such a bad thing to not want to get hurt? Is that being selfish? I guess maybe so. It is just one of the other million concessions you must make to be in a serious but fulfilling relationship. And those concessions just have to be worth it. And it is for me. I just get tired so easily. Giving so much of yourself over to another human being can really get tiring.
But it is rewarding. I don't want to get mushy on everyone like I used to. But I mean you know you care about someone when you're with them and you can think of no where else you'd rather be. You're not just content, you're fulfilled. It is a strange feeling to describe. It's not like complacency, because that entails being satisfied to the current point, and that at some later stage you'll want more. No, this is something quite different.
But, I stop there. I don't like talking about relationships in terms of the future. Tomorrow he may realize he is crazy to love me because I am just too damn complicated for him to even care. So, tonight. Tonight was good. This second is good. This moment is good. And that is all that really matters.
That is my theory anyway. But I am just a complicated, drama queen in walnut creek growing progressively and equally tired and irritated because i want my harry potter and i also want the release of sleep.
well. what are you going to do? more later.