many moods
I feel amazing. Jittery. The last doctor visit was a shocking success! After being sedated and worked on a lot and thoroughly drugged I'm eating and sleeping and walking again! I never thought I could ever be as sick as I was. Being unable move or speak, smell or hear without getting sick... every sense completely sabotaged. I also never thought I could recover like this. I shouldn't have gone to the beach or to torrey pines for a hike because of the antibiotics but it's just so beautiful and it's wonderful to be outside where I belong.
I'm exhausted and sad and frustrated. I'm very disoriented to be well. I hope to soon be reunited with the happiness in my life that drifted away in my mind. It will be better when I have company; I miss the quality of conversation I enjoyed. Intense disappointment with myself and some confusion with my identity rise and fall. These things aside, it's liberating to be so sure of what's most important to me.
Being healthy really is the best. Surgery is terrifying.
Moving here is the best thing I've ever done.
Things should be all better in a few days.
I'm exhausted and sad and frustrated. I'm very disoriented to be well. I hope to soon be reunited with the happiness in my life that drifted away in my mind. It will be better when I have company; I miss the quality of conversation I enjoyed. Intense disappointment with myself and some confusion with my identity rise and fall. These things aside, it's liberating to be so sure of what's most important to me.
Being healthy really is the best. Surgery is terrifying.
Moving here is the best thing I've ever done.
Things should be all better in a few days.