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[dulcecarrie]

so i'm starting to wonder whether i have a chronic stress problem or something... today someone at work had to tell me repeatedly to calm down because it was really busy and i had too much to do and i was freaking out... he had to practically force me to take my full 20 minute break cus i was all like "no theres too much to do i need to go back and finish ahhhhhhhhh" and then at the end of the night we ended up getting out late and i was freaking out because i hate getting out late, its frowned upon by the managers and i don't like it when it happens even though there was nothing that could have been done because i was alone with the new girl and it was super busy all day so we didn't have much of a chance to do anything we should have done... so i was super stressed from that, which is silly because it wasn't my fault, and then i come home and i'm like ahhhh there's so much cleaning to do and i have no socks left and i have to do laundry ahhhhhhh and then i think about how i have no money and i have 3 finals on the same day next week and i need to get my car fixed and the pipe under the bathroom sink has a hole in it and i had a brain overload and freaked out and ron tried to calm me down but i ended up yelling at him which i really didn't mean to do, but he hates it when i'm stressed and tells me to stop it but i can't and now i'm tired and just feel shitty and still stressed and all i want to do is go to bed

i mean wtf, i'm a healthy 22 year old, why can't i just have fun and enjoy my life? i hate being freaked out all the time