My Life
So, how was the new year? Mine was totally bad. I fell sick, I'm still sick, and my frineds are fighting and I have to chose sides. It's really gin=ving me a heartache. I can't just keep all my emotions bottled up, so I'm gonna go rant.
See there are seven frinds in my university, me being one. We met at the campus while getting registered, and have bee friendsfor three years. Two of our friends are school time friends. One (let's name her A for convenience) is a saint practically. She doesn't lie, helps everyone (I mean everyone, even those who hurts her). Her friend SH is a bit complex. I still has to figure her. The there's P, N, ND, S and me D. We met at the campus, and has been friends since then. We were together for two years. Then A applied for a foreign university and went to America, but before going she met this guy at campus. He is kind of her type. She likes him, but he doesn't. Then she had to go away. Our other mutual friend N I mentioned before became friends with this guy and after A went away they became really close and later they strated an affair. Now my friends are at war. A is mad at N because she stall her guy while actig as a sister to A. SH is not talking with N because A is her long friend. And I am stuck in the middle cause I am so confused. Why does this always happen to me? Don't I deserve some kind of a sane life? Since N is doing my course she and I are always together. when others are being mean to her I can't take it. I feel like they are being mean to me. And I get so hurt, I don't even want to go to school anymore. I just wanna get away from all this. god I hate when that happens.
And another matter. The guy I was interested in is giving me mixed signals. One moment he is flirting with me, the next he just........... ugh. I swear the new year is looking pretty bad to me. I also got a lower gpa last semester. I am studying on a scholarship so I need to maintain a gpa above 3.0 but I got 2.68. I have to go meet my sponsors which is scaring the hell out of me. We have to do a project and my group mate wants to do something I have never thought of. I swear everyone is going against me and It's making me crazy.
And so yeah I rant..... I had to get all that out. Otherwise I will burst.
See there are seven frinds in my university, me being one. We met at the campus while getting registered, and have bee friendsfor three years. Two of our friends are school time friends. One (let's name her A for convenience) is a saint practically. She doesn't lie, helps everyone (I mean everyone, even those who hurts her). Her friend SH is a bit complex. I still has to figure her. The there's P, N, ND, S and me D. We met at the campus, and has been friends since then. We were together for two years. Then A applied for a foreign university and went to America, but before going she met this guy at campus. He is kind of her type. She likes him, but he doesn't. Then she had to go away. Our other mutual friend N I mentioned before became friends with this guy and after A went away they became really close and later they strated an affair. Now my friends are at war. A is mad at N because she stall her guy while actig as a sister to A. SH is not talking with N because A is her long friend. And I am stuck in the middle cause I am so confused. Why does this always happen to me? Don't I deserve some kind of a sane life? Since N is doing my course she and I are always together. when others are being mean to her I can't take it. I feel like they are being mean to me. And I get so hurt, I don't even want to go to school anymore. I just wanna get away from all this. god I hate when that happens.
And another matter. The guy I was interested in is giving me mixed signals. One moment he is flirting with me, the next he just........... ugh. I swear the new year is looking pretty bad to me. I also got a lower gpa last semester. I am studying on a scholarship so I need to maintain a gpa above 3.0 but I got 2.68. I have to go meet my sponsors which is scaring the hell out of me. We have to do a project and my group mate wants to do something I have never thought of. I swear everyone is going against me and It's making me crazy.
And so yeah I rant..... I had to get all that out. Otherwise I will burst.