Honest to A Fault
I've been reading more peoples' livejournals as of late and it seems as though there are so many emotional issues and whatnot that I know nothing of. It only makes me realise that even though I like the friends I have, that I, for one reason or another, cannot connect with any of them, which is not to their fault by any means.
Essentially, it kind of inspired me to take a look inside myself. It made me realise that I am so far removed from everyone, and that I don't even really know how I feel most of the time. Sure, I'll usually slap out a "blah" or a "content", with the wildcard being "cranky" or whathaveyou, but that's not really how I feel. I don't know why, but I bury my emotions so deep that they are lost. I assume it's to protect myself, but I don't know what I'm saving myself from.
I just wish that, for once, I could be honest with myself and the ones I care about and have the real me show through.
Essentially, it kind of inspired me to take a look inside myself. It made me realise that I am so far removed from everyone, and that I don't even really know how I feel most of the time. Sure, I'll usually slap out a "blah" or a "content", with the wildcard being "cranky" or whathaveyou, but that's not really how I feel. I don't know why, but I bury my emotions so deep that they are lost. I assume it's to protect myself, but I don't know what I'm saving myself from.
I just wish that, for once, I could be honest with myself and the ones I care about and have the real me show through.