Ugh... pondering...
Ok... so I have been thinking so much lately.
ALmost to the point were my head just completely aches.
There are so many things I want right now, that I just cant have. I am confused.. and alone...
I know I am moving soon, so I really shouldnt want anymore out of Raleigh... but yet I do... and I want so much for myself when I move... and I am so scared that if I dont get those things when I move that life will just be completely ruined.
I want to make things happpen that I cant. LIfe sucks that way sometimes. There is absolutly nothing that I can do about them too.
Ugh, Vegas is coming up this week. Charlie and Harrison and Billy and Cindy will be there, so thats always good. I am glad I will get to spend some time with them outside of work.
I was listening to music, and... this is seriously how I feel right now, even though I wish I could make things differend and make ME the one that makes him smile, and make MYSELF the one that he dreams about at night, but I cant and I know that. He likes this other girl, and I compltely hate her and I dont even know her. Pathetic, right??
I hope the days come easy and the moments pass slow
And each road takes you where you wanna go
And if you are faced with the choice and you have to choose
I hope you choose the one that means the most to you
And if one door opens to another door closed
Keep on walkin til you find the window
When its cold outside show the world the warmth of your smile
More than anything, More than anything
My wish
For you
Is that this life because all that you want it to
Your dreams stay big
Your worries stay small
You never need to carry more than you can hold
And while you're out there gettin where your gettin to
I hope you know somebody loves you
And wants the same things too
Yea, this is my wish... <33
Even though he hurts me, I want that for him... :(
Now, its off to wollow in self pity and cry... but I am doing better than usual... today is just a bad day...
Alas... Vegas in 8 days... ahoy!!
ALmost to the point were my head just completely aches.
There are so many things I want right now, that I just cant have. I am confused.. and alone...
I know I am moving soon, so I really shouldnt want anymore out of Raleigh... but yet I do... and I want so much for myself when I move... and I am so scared that if I dont get those things when I move that life will just be completely ruined.
I want to make things happpen that I cant. LIfe sucks that way sometimes. There is absolutly nothing that I can do about them too.
Ugh, Vegas is coming up this week. Charlie and Harrison and Billy and Cindy will be there, so thats always good. I am glad I will get to spend some time with them outside of work.
I was listening to music, and... this is seriously how I feel right now, even though I wish I could make things differend and make ME the one that makes him smile, and make MYSELF the one that he dreams about at night, but I cant and I know that. He likes this other girl, and I compltely hate her and I dont even know her. Pathetic, right??
I hope the days come easy and the moments pass slow
And each road takes you where you wanna go
And if you are faced with the choice and you have to choose
I hope you choose the one that means the most to you
And if one door opens to another door closed
Keep on walkin til you find the window
When its cold outside show the world the warmth of your smile
More than anything, More than anything
My wish
For you
Is that this life because all that you want it to
Your dreams stay big
Your worries stay small
You never need to carry more than you can hold
And while you're out there gettin where your gettin to
I hope you know somebody loves you
And wants the same things too
Yea, this is my wish... <33
Even though he hurts me, I want that for him... :(
Now, its off to wollow in self pity and cry... but I am doing better than usual... today is just a bad day...
Alas... Vegas in 8 days... ahoy!!