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[duhitsmeli]

as much as im trying, i cant think anything bad of him. and thats not good. in my head i keep blaming it on her. im sure she manipulated him. she seems to be very good at doing that to people. i dont know. i cant stand thinking of not being with him. i dunno man this is so painful. last night i scared myself thinking to ahead of the situation. thing is i havnt really talked to him. so i really dont know his side of it. but the decision is his. i dont have the will power to end it with him . it hurts too much. couldnt do it last time,cant do it now. i prefer him do it if he wants to. i dont know why im doing this. ive never tried so hard to keep things together. i want to hear what he has to say.

today im going to school at around 11-12 . im skipping fcat hours.