FILL: Forever is a Lonely Number - J2, NC-17 (1/6) souslelysMarch 2 2016, 03:52:09 UTC
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At an audition of all places.
One handshake, a dimpled grin, and he’s being pulled into a big hug before he can even get out his first, “Hey - oof - Jared.”
0-0-0
The hugs don’t stop, and Jensen always has to catch himself, has to slow them down, pace it out even if Jared doesn’t know the meaning of the word.
Despite his efforts, it seems they’ve skipped fast friends, and barrelled straight to J-squared. There’s fanfic and a fandom and everything. It’s funny, having strangers cooing whenever they smile at each other, coming up with their own happily-ever-afters.
For now, he has a real, live Jay hanging off him at all hours of the day. They’re wearing matching friendship bracelets. He’s met Jared’s mama. Twice.
(Slow Jared down, yeah fucking right).
They’re on set, waiting for the crew to set the scene, and Jared is fiddling with his phone, trying to find this video he just knows Jensen will love. His brows are furrowed in concentration and once in a while he looks up through his bangs to make sure Jensen is still waiting with
( ... )
Re: FILL: Forever is a Lonely Number - J2, NC-17 (2/6) souslelysMarch 2 2016, 03:53:19 UTC
“Look at you. Always so fucking pretty.”
He’s chasing sleep into the fluffy white covers, but it escapes him when Jared’s hand finds Jensen’s cock, long, languid pumps that send shivers of pleasure up his spine. Jared wraps his arms around Jensen then, pulling his back flush against Jared’s front.
Goddamn Jared. Always waking him up, always playing so fucking dirty.
Jensen scoots back so Jared’s grinding into him with slow, rocking movements, enjoying this quiet, Nowhere-Else-We-Gotta-Be time where they can just lose themselves in each other. Teeth nip along the nape of Jensen’s neck, latching onto the slope of his shoulder and working at the skin there. With the pleasure from Jared’s hand sparking along his spine, echoing through his limbs, it’s all Jensen can do not to melt into the complete feeling of Jared all around him.
Jared’s got the bulk to go with his height now, all that time at the gym clear in the large, defined muscles beneath Jensen’s fingertips. His hair’s longer, the dimples are deeper - half his clothes don’t fit
( ... )
FILL: Forever is a Lonely Number - J2, NC-17 (3/6) souslelysMarch 2 2016, 03:54:01 UTC
Jensen’s lips quirk up as he examines the photos. One’s of the time they first moved in together five years ago, in front of the house that Jared found (even though he strut around like he built the place - granted, it had been pretty perfect for them). Jared had set up the tripod in the yard, running back as the camera blinked its countdown. In the photo it’s Jared’s arm around Jensen and they’re wearing matching grins - two happy, young homeowners.
The second photo is more recent - the two of them dressed up for Jensen’s birthday just last week, where Jared took him to a new fancy steakhouse they’d been dying to try. Jared’s arm is around him yet again, with Jensen’s arm around his waist, hand on his hip. Same, happy grins.
“You look the same.”
Jensen takes a deep breath, staring squarely at the photographs. “Do I? My hair was a lot lighter back then -“
“Jensen it’s been eight years, and you look the exactly same as you did when I first met you.”
Re: FILL: Forever is a Lonely Number - J2, NC-17 (4/6) souslelysMarch 2 2016, 03:54:28 UTC
Even then, it’s surprising what people see when they don’t want to accept the impossible. The theories of Jensen’s death, and Jared’s affairs with a young, look-a-like never fail to amuse them.
Jared is holding himself stiffly, and he’s looking everywhere but at Jensen.
“Jay, what’s wrong?” Jensen takes off his jacket, and starts unbuttoning his dress shirt.
“I don’t know Jen, why don’t you tell me?” Jared almost growls. “That waiter wouldn’t stop looking at you or touching you every damn chance he got.”
“Really? That’s what this is about? He’s just a kid Jay -“
“And so are you!”
Baffled silence hangs in the air. Jared’s hair is a mess after he’s pulled off his shirt, revealing that beloved toned torso, with just a hint of beer belly. Jensen thinks he might just understand.
“You saying you’ve outgrown me?” Jensen asks, chin lifted up in challenge. He knows the answer, but Jared needs to understand.
“No! Fuck, of course not,” Jared says. “But god, Jensen, I already look twice your age - the doctor says I have high cholesterol and I
( ... )
FILL: Forever is a Lonely Number - J2, NC-17 (5/6) souslelysMarch 2 2016, 03:55:25 UTC
Jensen sits astride Jared’s lap. Lowering himself with slow, swaying hips so Jared can see the way his dick peeks out the top of the black panties, how the silk covers his balls. He stops, moving just above Jared’s hips so that the soft lace rubs up against Jared’s cock.
Long, greedy fingers dig into Jensen’s ass, squeezing and pulling apart before rubbing over Jensen’s lube-slicked hole. Jared moans, his voice rough with how turned on he is. “Holy shit, it’s you, you’re going to give me a heart attack from being so sexy and you’re going to kill me.”
Jared pushes the panties to the side, so that he can rub the head of his cock onto Jensen’s bare entrance, using the leaking slick to ease his way. He gets the wide tip of himself inside then stops with a groan, resting his forehead on Jensen’s shoulder.
“Jensen wait. How can you be okay with all this? How -“He’s cut off when Jensen sinks completely down onto his cock. “Fuck.”
Jensen begins to ride him, using his knees for leverage and encouraging Jared to push him down, thrust up. They
( ... )
FILL: Forever is a Lonely Number - J2, NC-17 (6/6) souslelysMarch 2 2016, 03:59:36 UTC
0-0-0
This is how it feels every time. And it’s difficult no matter what he does - there’s never an easy way to lose Jared.
The idea strikes him randomly, out of the blue, probably borne out of his longing for his very own happily-ever-after.
Jared’s tablet is still on the bedside table, and Jensen reaches for it, taking it back with him underneath the covers. He doesn’t care much for the outside world, but right now he just needs… something else.
He smiles at the screensaver - a scene from their wedding, just after the exchange of rings - and he punches in 0-3-0-1 to unlock it, hastily wiping his face on the bedsheets.
There aren’t many apps - one for books, one for news, and a few others Jensen doesn’t recognize.
Launching the browser, the search bar cursor blinks steadily at him.
He stares at it for a few seconds, then raises an unsteady hand to type in ‘S-P-N-J-2’.
0-26
Jensen puts his bag away, making sure to clip his nametag onto his scrubs before leaving the locker room. He’s only recently graduated, and he was lucky enough to
( ... )
Re: FILL: Forever is a Lonely Number - J2, NC-17 (6/6) lavishsqualorMarch 2 2016, 06:58:22 UTC
omgggg. This was so perfect in every way. Way to fucking break my heart!! No seriously though, the concept that he will always find Jared, that they will always be together, it's really beautiful. And I love the hopefulness of it all.
Re: FILL: Forever is a Lonely Number - J2, NC-17 (6/6) amberdreamsMarch 2 2016, 17:07:43 UTC
Oh this is too good (if you see what I mean) for comment fic, I hope you are posting it all over the place! It's a heart-wrenchingly, beautifully executed supernatural love story - the thought that Jensen endures through the loneliness of looking for Jared's next incarnation is such a sad yet awesome idea. Such loyalty, such love. Gah! It's gorgeous.
Re: FILL: Forever is a Lonely Number - J2, NC-17 (6/6) somerMarch 2 2016, 20:31:12 UTC
Oh my god! I just cried my eyes out!
“You never remember.”
“Because I will always find you, dumbass.”
“Hey Jared.”
I'M CRYING AGAIN JUST LOOKING AT THESE SENTENCES!!! Oh maaan, I loved this so, so much! WHY DID I EVEN READ THIS!? Had a suspicion it was going to be heartbreaking! But man, Jared with 81 and Jensen lying next to him! And then Jensen looking at the tablet!
Re: FILL: Forever is a Lonely Number - J2, NC-17 (6/6) saltandburnboysMarch 3 2016, 01:52:58 UTC
I read it again.
Why did I read it again??
I am now broken...all over again.
😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
There are no words for how much I adore this. The idea, the words, the love poured into every sentence. *SOBS FOREVER* *SOBS FOR LONELY JENSEN*
It's all so utterly beautiful, but this line, this one - 'No matter what the doctor says, he’s always trying to reach for things, his glasses, his books, Jensen.. It just...it stabs me right in the heart.
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22-26
At an audition of all places.
One handshake, a dimpled grin, and he’s being pulled into a big hug before he can even get out his first, “Hey - oof - Jared.”
0-0-0
The hugs don’t stop, and Jensen always has to catch himself, has to slow them down, pace it out even if Jared doesn’t know the meaning of the word.
Despite his efforts, it seems they’ve skipped fast friends, and barrelled straight to J-squared. There’s fanfic and a fandom and everything. It’s funny, having strangers cooing whenever they smile at each other, coming up with their own happily-ever-afters.
For now, he has a real, live Jay hanging off him at all hours of the day. They’re wearing matching friendship bracelets. He’s met Jared’s mama. Twice.
(Slow Jared down, yeah fucking right).
They’re on set, waiting for the crew to set the scene, and Jared is fiddling with his phone, trying to find this video he just knows Jensen will love. His brows are furrowed in concentration and once in a while he looks up through his bangs to make sure Jensen is still waiting with ( ... )
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“Look at you. Always so fucking pretty.”
He’s chasing sleep into the fluffy white covers, but it escapes him when Jared’s hand finds Jensen’s cock, long, languid pumps that send shivers of pleasure up his spine. Jared wraps his arms around Jensen then, pulling his back flush against Jared’s front.
Goddamn Jared. Always waking him up, always playing so fucking dirty.
Jensen scoots back so Jared’s grinding into him with slow, rocking movements, enjoying this quiet, Nowhere-Else-We-Gotta-Be time where they can just lose themselves in each other. Teeth nip along the nape of Jensen’s neck, latching onto the slope of his shoulder and working at the skin there. With the pleasure from Jared’s hand sparking along his spine, echoing through his limbs, it’s all Jensen can do not to melt into the complete feeling of Jared all around him.
Jared’s got the bulk to go with his height now, all that time at the gym clear in the large, defined muscles beneath Jensen’s fingertips. His hair’s longer, the dimples are deeper - half his clothes don’t fit ( ... )
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Jensen’s lips quirk up as he examines the photos. One’s of the time they first moved in together five years ago, in front of the house that Jared found (even though he strut around like he built the place - granted, it had been pretty perfect for them). Jared had set up the tripod in the yard, running back as the camera blinked its countdown. In the photo it’s Jared’s arm around Jensen and they’re wearing matching grins - two happy, young homeowners.
The second photo is more recent - the two of them dressed up for Jensen’s birthday just last week, where Jared took him to a new fancy steakhouse they’d been dying to try. Jared’s arm is around him yet again, with Jensen’s arm around his waist, hand on his hip. Same, happy grins.
“You look the same.”
Jensen takes a deep breath, staring squarely at the photographs. “Do I? My hair was a lot lighter back then -“
“Jensen it’s been eight years, and you look the exactly same as you did when I first met you.”
“What can I say? Some people are just blessed -“
“Jensen.”
All this time, he still ( ... )
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Even then, it’s surprising what people see when they don’t want to accept the impossible. The theories of Jensen’s death, and Jared’s affairs with a young, look-a-like never fail to amuse them.
Jared is holding himself stiffly, and he’s looking everywhere but at Jensen.
“Jay, what’s wrong?” Jensen takes off his jacket, and starts unbuttoning his dress shirt.
“I don’t know Jen, why don’t you tell me?” Jared almost growls. “That waiter wouldn’t stop looking at you or touching you every damn chance he got.”
“Really? That’s what this is about? He’s just a kid Jay -“
“And so are you!”
Baffled silence hangs in the air. Jared’s hair is a mess after he’s pulled off his shirt, revealing that beloved toned torso, with just a hint of beer belly. Jensen thinks he might just understand.
“You saying you’ve outgrown me?” Jensen asks, chin lifted up in challenge. He knows the answer, but Jared needs to understand.
“No! Fuck, of course not,” Jared says. “But god, Jensen, I already look twice your age - the doctor says I have high cholesterol and I ( ... )
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Jensen sits astride Jared’s lap. Lowering himself with slow, swaying hips so Jared can see the way his dick peeks out the top of the black panties, how the silk covers his balls. He stops, moving just above Jared’s hips so that the soft lace rubs up against Jared’s cock.
Long, greedy fingers dig into Jensen’s ass, squeezing and pulling apart before rubbing over Jensen’s lube-slicked hole. Jared moans, his voice rough with how turned on he is. “Holy shit, it’s you, you’re going to give me a heart attack from being so sexy and you’re going to kill me.”
Jared pushes the panties to the side, so that he can rub the head of his cock onto Jensen’s bare entrance, using the leaking slick to ease his way. He gets the wide tip of himself inside then stops with a groan, resting his forehead on Jensen’s shoulder.
“Jensen wait. How can you be okay with all this? How -“He’s cut off when Jensen sinks completely down onto his cock. “Fuck.”
Jensen begins to ride him, using his knees for leverage and encouraging Jared to push him down, thrust up. They ( ... )
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0-0-0
This is how it feels every time. And it’s difficult no matter what he does - there’s never an easy way to lose Jared.
The idea strikes him randomly, out of the blue, probably borne out of his longing for his very own happily-ever-after.
Jared’s tablet is still on the bedside table, and Jensen reaches for it, taking it back with him underneath the covers. He doesn’t care much for the outside world, but right now he just needs… something else.
He smiles at the screensaver - a scene from their wedding, just after the exchange of rings - and he punches in 0-3-0-1 to unlock it, hastily wiping his face on the bedsheets.
There aren’t many apps - one for books, one for news, and a few others Jensen doesn’t recognize.
Launching the browser, the search bar cursor blinks steadily at him.
He stares at it for a few seconds, then raises an unsteady hand to type in ‘S-P-N-J-2’.
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Jensen puts his bag away, making sure to clip his nametag onto his scrubs before leaving the locker room. He’s only recently graduated, and he was lucky enough to ( ... )
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Ugh, my heart with the last two scenes
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all the ♥♥♥♥♥♥
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“You never remember.”
“Because I will always find you, dumbass.”
“Hey Jared.”
I'M CRYING AGAIN JUST LOOKING AT THESE SENTENCES!!! Oh maaan, I loved this so, so much! WHY DID I EVEN READ THIS!? Had a suspicion it was going to be heartbreaking! But man, Jared with 81 and Jensen lying next to him! And then Jensen looking at the tablet!
Guuuh, man! Thanks so much for writing this <3
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Why did I read it again??
I am now broken...all over again.
😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
There are no words for how much I adore this. The idea, the words, the love poured into every sentence. *SOBS FOREVER* *SOBS FOR LONELY JENSEN*
It's all so utterly beautiful, but this line, this one - 'No matter what the doctor says, he’s always trying to reach for things, his glasses, his books, Jensen.. It just...it stabs me right in the heart.
God...I. Am. Broken.
I HOPE YOU ARE HAPPY (I LOVE YOU)
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