Colorado is pretty I hear, this time of year
Hi Livejournal... how's it been????
I guess I've been ok.... decent is a good word for how i've been lately... but over all, good.
So I talked to Tina today on the phone... It's only the 4th time that we've spoke over the phone, and i think we're still a bit uncomfortable on the phone. Sometimes I don't know what to say, and I think she's the same way... It sounds like she wants to say stuff or ask questions, but she can't quite bring herself to go that far yet... Every time we hang up I keeping wishing she'd call me back.... (she doesn't call me, it seems that I am the one who calls her, but i just may not see when she calls me, or remember)- I wish she'd call me....
Sometimes I just want to sit on the phone with her, not sure why, but even though I can't think of something to say, I just like to know that she's on the phone... I actually talked to her about something that wasn't fabulous... a problem I'm having, she kind of had an answer... but it's a hard one to answer, anyone would have been tripped up by it.
I just like talking to her about anything, you know, getting to know her... but we've barely begun to scratch the surface with the few phone calls and e-mails... I didn't think it would be like this... nothing is bad... what I mean is, that I didn't expect to has such a draw to her, I figured it would be great and hunky-dory, and if she would want to get to know me, then great... It would be fun... but no, I have this natural feeling that I just want to up and go see her, or up and just call her... But how often is appropriate for a you to call or talk to a person who hasn't seen you in 21 yrs.. we don't even know each other... I just want to get to know her, and I don't know why it's such a strong feeling. She sent me a wonderful e-mail a few weeks ago... and I loved it... it's like I'm in love, but the giddy feeling is something else...
Now it's not that I don't love my own mom and dad, actually I think this experience has really shown me how much i do love them, and how much I want and need them in my life... i just... I don't know... I think I want to meet her... but I think I should get to a weekly or biweekly talking basis before I even go there...
Sometimes I feel empty after we hang up... don't know why, but I do... and even the idea of her on the other end of the phone is exciting... I wonder how her house is decorated... or Erica's APT is decorated... I wonder what Carol likes to eat for breakfast, or what George(whom I've never spoken to) does on a Saturday afternoon????????????? I think my mind and heart is trying to tell me something... I know something... It seems like it should be an easy answer, but I can't put my finger on it...
But i like talking to her... tina that is... and erica; even though we haven't really talked in a few weeks....
Well Livejournal, I should go... You have a good one, and thanks for listening...
Ciao!
~Me
I guess I've been ok.... decent is a good word for how i've been lately... but over all, good.
So I talked to Tina today on the phone... It's only the 4th time that we've spoke over the phone, and i think we're still a bit uncomfortable on the phone. Sometimes I don't know what to say, and I think she's the same way... It sounds like she wants to say stuff or ask questions, but she can't quite bring herself to go that far yet... Every time we hang up I keeping wishing she'd call me back.... (she doesn't call me, it seems that I am the one who calls her, but i just may not see when she calls me, or remember)- I wish she'd call me....
Sometimes I just want to sit on the phone with her, not sure why, but even though I can't think of something to say, I just like to know that she's on the phone... I actually talked to her about something that wasn't fabulous... a problem I'm having, she kind of had an answer... but it's a hard one to answer, anyone would have been tripped up by it.
I just like talking to her about anything, you know, getting to know her... but we've barely begun to scratch the surface with the few phone calls and e-mails... I didn't think it would be like this... nothing is bad... what I mean is, that I didn't expect to has such a draw to her, I figured it would be great and hunky-dory, and if she would want to get to know me, then great... It would be fun... but no, I have this natural feeling that I just want to up and go see her, or up and just call her... But how often is appropriate for a you to call or talk to a person who hasn't seen you in 21 yrs.. we don't even know each other... I just want to get to know her, and I don't know why it's such a strong feeling. She sent me a wonderful e-mail a few weeks ago... and I loved it... it's like I'm in love, but the giddy feeling is something else...
Now it's not that I don't love my own mom and dad, actually I think this experience has really shown me how much i do love them, and how much I want and need them in my life... i just... I don't know... I think I want to meet her... but I think I should get to a weekly or biweekly talking basis before I even go there...
Sometimes I feel empty after we hang up... don't know why, but I do... and even the idea of her on the other end of the phone is exciting... I wonder how her house is decorated... or Erica's APT is decorated... I wonder what Carol likes to eat for breakfast, or what George(whom I've never spoken to) does on a Saturday afternoon????????????? I think my mind and heart is trying to tell me something... I know something... It seems like it should be an easy answer, but I can't put my finger on it...
But i like talking to her... tina that is... and erica; even though we haven't really talked in a few weeks....
Well Livejournal, I should go... You have a good one, and thanks for listening...
Ciao!
~Me