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What am I to do livejournal? I'm scared, but not sure what of. I'm confused, yet I feel purpose. I'm sad, but I look happy. Why does my mind play tricks on me? Why can't it make up it's mind!?! All I want is to find someone nice and have my career and settle down!!!! But I have met someone, but I'm not allowed to like him. He's sweet and kind, and always there for me, but I can't have him. He already is seeing someone, not that I'm in his league or anything livejournal, but it would be nice to know that he even notices me. Also, I keep having these complete emotional breakdowns and I can't figure them out. I know I need to go to the doctor, but I don't have time... Hell I don't even have the time to do simple things, like go out, or see a movie.... AHHHH! Whatever livejournal. I'm so fucking pissed right now that I'm about to explode. I can't even continue this rant... I'm afraid that I'll throw something across the room, this isn't even my home that I'm writing this from. Ok LJ, I must go. Maybe I'll stew about this some more and will be able to actually put this into words, or at least music. TTYL LJ!
Ciao!
Ciao!