a statement from his former life...
Oklahoma has undergone it's day-long transition from summer to winter. Hi winter, nice to finally see you! Too bad I can't get my heater to work. It was fixed today but it broke again today. Looks like it'll have to be fixed tomorrow, too.
What's new in my world?
I've been on a date. I think I kind of botched it by bringing up crop circles (something that a close friend advised me against doing) and aliens, the universe, consciousness-energy and all that good stuff. Oh well, I was myself. At least she didn't stop talking to me after that. Actually I got the impression she wanted to see me again but I think I kind of botched that, too. It's only because it was a small 'party' atmosphere where I knew 2 whole people and all were at least 2 years younger than me. I had a hard time acting sociable that night - I had been denied seeing a Willie Nelson concert for the fourth time in as many years and had drank way too much whisky way too fast. When I was at her party I was not feeling too good. I'm sure something will get written in here if I actually start dating this girl. She's a good girl - I would enjoy spending more time with her - but it doesn't seem to be falling into place very easily. She's a busy person and lately I have been as well so there haven't been too many opportunities to get together.
What else?
School, work, etc... - I am actually studying regularly and staying caught up on my readings now.
I saw two Widespread Panic shows this weekend - Little Rock, Arkansas and Oklahoma City. It was a grand time with many friends, intoxicants, and dancing. I came away from it a little bit more ready to sit and meditate than before, so I count that as a good thing. I really have very little to comment on. I get so easily bored with mundane conversations - even intelligent conversations. Life is sooooo much better when that 'inner voice' goes away. Everything becomes a direct expression of who you really are and confusion is dissolved in a fully-conscious perception of Reality. Something happened during "Drums" in Oklahoma City and I completely lost myself in an explosive dance that seemed to break down all the barriers between self and other, between I and It.
In light of what I just said I don't have anything more to say. I'm about to go to work where I'll probably be expected to carry on intelligent conversations about things that seem important. Then it's back home to curl up next to my electric space heater and breathe my way into infinity.
What's new in my world?
I've been on a date. I think I kind of botched it by bringing up crop circles (something that a close friend advised me against doing) and aliens, the universe, consciousness-energy and all that good stuff. Oh well, I was myself. At least she didn't stop talking to me after that. Actually I got the impression she wanted to see me again but I think I kind of botched that, too. It's only because it was a small 'party' atmosphere where I knew 2 whole people and all were at least 2 years younger than me. I had a hard time acting sociable that night - I had been denied seeing a Willie Nelson concert for the fourth time in as many years and had drank way too much whisky way too fast. When I was at her party I was not feeling too good. I'm sure something will get written in here if I actually start dating this girl. She's a good girl - I would enjoy spending more time with her - but it doesn't seem to be falling into place very easily. She's a busy person and lately I have been as well so there haven't been too many opportunities to get together.
What else?
School, work, etc... - I am actually studying regularly and staying caught up on my readings now.
I saw two Widespread Panic shows this weekend - Little Rock, Arkansas and Oklahoma City. It was a grand time with many friends, intoxicants, and dancing. I came away from it a little bit more ready to sit and meditate than before, so I count that as a good thing. I really have very little to comment on. I get so easily bored with mundane conversations - even intelligent conversations. Life is sooooo much better when that 'inner voice' goes away. Everything becomes a direct expression of who you really are and confusion is dissolved in a fully-conscious perception of Reality. Something happened during "Drums" in Oklahoma City and I completely lost myself in an explosive dance that seemed to break down all the barriers between self and other, between I and It.
In light of what I just said I don't have anything more to say. I'm about to go to work where I'll probably be expected to carry on intelligent conversations about things that seem important. Then it's back home to curl up next to my electric space heater and breathe my way into infinity.