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well... since i last updated i had a birthday. I'm 22 now. I don't think one of my friends (in this state) actually remembered. that's okay - i don't usually remember their birthdays... and when I do I don't usually bother honoring it. It's kind of an arbitrary day - unless you believe in Hindu astrology... then it's a spiritualy powerful day... but eh - who gives a fuck about hindu astrology? probably not any of you.
I for one took the occasion to reflect upon 22 years. A somewhat unique 22 years considering... the things I have gone through - and the things, ahem, I have not gone through. I feel like I have a pretty good grasp on what I want to be doing and where I want to be going... and I'm working through the necessary steps to get there... or at least I think I am. I don't know what else to say about that. It's weird to be 22 in our culture and not know what it feels like to have a girlfriend or go on a real date or spend a beautiful summer night making love untl the sunrise...
it seems as though most of the people I know have done most of those things.. probably long before 22.
but it may be the case that i was never meant for that lifestyle. after all, what girl would honestly want to be serious about a guy who does not believe the "separate self" sense (ego, individual, "me") to be anything more than a perceived entity, which can be disidentified with at will, and reunited with a larger body of consciousness-energy which is the source of all life energy in existence?
and why would i want to be serious about her?
is this why girls don't respond to me?
anybody have any responses post 'em!
I for one took the occasion to reflect upon 22 years. A somewhat unique 22 years considering... the things I have gone through - and the things, ahem, I have not gone through. I feel like I have a pretty good grasp on what I want to be doing and where I want to be going... and I'm working through the necessary steps to get there... or at least I think I am. I don't know what else to say about that. It's weird to be 22 in our culture and not know what it feels like to have a girlfriend or go on a real date or spend a beautiful summer night making love untl the sunrise...
it seems as though most of the people I know have done most of those things.. probably long before 22.
but it may be the case that i was never meant for that lifestyle. after all, what girl would honestly want to be serious about a guy who does not believe the "separate self" sense (ego, individual, "me") to be anything more than a perceived entity, which can be disidentified with at will, and reunited with a larger body of consciousness-energy which is the source of all life energy in existence?
and why would i want to be serious about her?
is this why girls don't respond to me?
anybody have any responses post 'em!