Moving Day
Well, it was just moving the desk from the spare bedroom / catch-all / place where we stuff the things when we have guests bonus room to the library nook. Also gave the boys a place to crash other than the living room. This will go a long way to helping me feel less anxious in the mornings.
The desktop is installed on the desk now as well. I have a place to write where it feels like writing again. maybe it is my age showing but writing on a mobile doesn't feel like writing; length is unnatural and thought seems like an impediment. Impulsive thumb twitches and pretty pictures are best served by our flask-sized computers. I feel like that is not enough anymore. I miss the words that used to flow with ease. I miss the man of words I used to be.
A final thought. I am calling mental health professionals tomorrow regarding the most recent bout of depression. This is familiar territory but at the same time terrifying. Last time I went my life changed like crazy. For then better but still, CHANGE. Wish me luck.
The desktop is installed on the desk now as well. I have a place to write where it feels like writing again. maybe it is my age showing but writing on a mobile doesn't feel like writing; length is unnatural and thought seems like an impediment. Impulsive thumb twitches and pretty pictures are best served by our flask-sized computers. I feel like that is not enough anymore. I miss the words that used to flow with ease. I miss the man of words I used to be.
A final thought. I am calling mental health professionals tomorrow regarding the most recent bout of depression. This is familiar territory but at the same time terrifying. Last time I went my life changed like crazy. For then better but still, CHANGE. Wish me luck.