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okay im not sad anymore. stressed but not sad.all these branches are fighting over me to get help at their branches and im taking the heat.
Im kind of stressed to make sure I can get all of these tests done for this genectic disease. sounds so weird saying that but thats what they are calling it. nothing major but it its affecting my life.
in the next month things are going to be happening so quickly. i have to move out of my apartment, then my birthday, then move into my new apartment and back at school. wow summer just flew by. and i didn't see that many people. or people just fucking lame and i dont want to mention any names but they know who they are.
ahhhh i hate being ignored. worst feeling of not knowing what you did wrong and they stop talking to you and they just tell you oh i do that often. what the fuck who does that? you just stop talking to someone you said you had feelings for and were friends with just for the fucking hell of it. sorry thats not okay, either you were actually pissed at me for something and to chicken to tell me or you are just have some issues. i dont know how to handle this.
i just need to go back to school, thats why i went away to school is to forget about certain people and it made me realie who i cared about back at home.
i worry to much. thats my problem. i worry to much what people think of me. and i have the worst self esteem. i have no confidence and when ppl stop talking to me i start obessing on it and becoming really sad and thinking omg what did i do to upset them. maybe im walking on eggshells to much with people and it just gives the message out that you can't walk all over me. what the fuck. i dont know what to do. im confused with so manythings. school, family, friends, love life, future career. i hate making decisions, well i dont even like making them, i wish people would do it for me because im always afriad of making the wrong one. okay i need to stop.
Im kind of stressed to make sure I can get all of these tests done for this genectic disease. sounds so weird saying that but thats what they are calling it. nothing major but it its affecting my life.
in the next month things are going to be happening so quickly. i have to move out of my apartment, then my birthday, then move into my new apartment and back at school. wow summer just flew by. and i didn't see that many people. or people just fucking lame and i dont want to mention any names but they know who they are.
ahhhh i hate being ignored. worst feeling of not knowing what you did wrong and they stop talking to you and they just tell you oh i do that often. what the fuck who does that? you just stop talking to someone you said you had feelings for and were friends with just for the fucking hell of it. sorry thats not okay, either you were actually pissed at me for something and to chicken to tell me or you are just have some issues. i dont know how to handle this.
i just need to go back to school, thats why i went away to school is to forget about certain people and it made me realie who i cared about back at home.
i worry to much. thats my problem. i worry to much what people think of me. and i have the worst self esteem. i have no confidence and when ppl stop talking to me i start obessing on it and becoming really sad and thinking omg what did i do to upset them. maybe im walking on eggshells to much with people and it just gives the message out that you can't walk all over me. what the fuck. i dont know what to do. im confused with so manythings. school, family, friends, love life, future career. i hate making decisions, well i dont even like making them, i wish people would do it for me because im always afriad of making the wrong one. okay i need to stop.