Journal Entries
In Days, Roxas keeps a journal. Now there's no way I'm going to write an entry for every day, but every now and then or if something that Roxas is musing over pops up, it will be here. Unlike the others keeping theirs on the Guide, Roxas is actually using a physical copy. These are not accessible from the network and only to whoever he is rooming with at the time. The hiding spot is easy: always under his bed. If you want to snoop his room for his journal, go ahead and IM me and we can set something up!
Each entry is put under a new cut too. :>
Not Sure Anymore
I sent some texts to Kamui asking how he can just accept things like that. Naminè also asked by why I don't like him. Kamui says it's like it is for a reason and everyone keeps reminding me that I wouldn't be without him. I know that. I get that. But I can't help it that I get angry when I think about it or see his face. But I don't think it's me blaming him now. He doesn't seem that bad from what I heard. Stupid, maybe, but I don't know...
Guess I don't know what to think about all of it or him now. Before it was easy...
The Truth
I'm going to tell Maka soon.
Took Kamui's advice. Or demand, I guess. It worked out okay, but... Sora said he wanted to know his Nobody. Because they're important. A part of him like his friends and family. A brother or sister. Not because I'm what he left behind. It's funny. Before I was only important because I could use the Keyblade or because I was his Nobody and could be useful. I never thought about it the other way before. He surprises me, I guess. I'm not looking to make friends but he is, I think.
Can you be friends with your Other? I don't know. I think that I can accept Sora as a person as he is right now and as long as Xion is here too. I'm not giving her up. Ever. And I still don't want to be whole if it means I lose what's important to me right now.
Riku and Naminè should tell him.
Togetherness
I've been hearing a lot of that on the ship lately. Halloween and Christmas. The Halloween one sounds kind of fun, but I still think of exploding pumpkins when they talk about it. Renge says that stuff like that doesn't really happen on Halloween. I bet Tamaki is planning an event or something too. But it sounds more like something that the twins would like instead of him. It's Christmas that I don't know... What's the point? If you want to give presents to someone, why wait until just one day to do it? Why is it just one day out of the year that everyone is together doing that?
Sora says "we" have to do it this year. I'll pass, thanks.
Still haven't figured out what to do about this ball either. I want to go, since it sounds like fun. But who would I ask? I think most of my friends are going with other people, aren't they?
Zexion
He's gone now. It's a little empty. Is that what happens when someone you trust leaves? ...Were we friends? I want him to come back, even if it's one-sided. At least, out of everyone, he was honest. I could talk to him about things I couldn't ask Axel or Xion. Now I don't know who else to go to with those questions.
This sucks.
Each entry is put under a new cut too. :>
Not Sure Anymore
I sent some texts to Kamui asking how he can just accept things like that. Naminè also asked by why I don't like him. Kamui says it's like it is for a reason and everyone keeps reminding me that I wouldn't be without him. I know that. I get that. But I can't help it that I get angry when I think about it or see his face. But I don't think it's me blaming him now. He doesn't seem that bad from what I heard. Stupid, maybe, but I don't know...
Guess I don't know what to think about all of it or him now. Before it was easy...
The Truth
I'm going to tell Maka soon.
Took Kamui's advice. Or demand, I guess. It worked out okay, but... Sora said he wanted to know his Nobody. Because they're important. A part of him like his friends and family. A brother or sister. Not because I'm what he left behind. It's funny. Before I was only important because I could use the Keyblade or because I was his Nobody and could be useful. I never thought about it the other way before. He surprises me, I guess. I'm not looking to make friends but he is, I think.
Can you be friends with your Other? I don't know. I think that I can accept Sora as a person as he is right now and as long as Xion is here too. I'm not giving her up. Ever. And I still don't want to be whole if it means I lose what's important to me right now.
Riku and Naminè should tell him.
Togetherness
I've been hearing a lot of that on the ship lately. Halloween and Christmas. The Halloween one sounds kind of fun, but I still think of exploding pumpkins when they talk about it. Renge says that stuff like that doesn't really happen on Halloween. I bet Tamaki is planning an event or something too. But it sounds more like something that the twins would like instead of him. It's Christmas that I don't know... What's the point? If you want to give presents to someone, why wait until just one day to do it? Why is it just one day out of the year that everyone is together doing that?
Sora says "we" have to do it this year. I'll pass, thanks.
Still haven't figured out what to do about this ball either. I want to go, since it sounds like fun. But who would I ask? I think most of my friends are going with other people, aren't they?
Zexion
He's gone now. It's a little empty. Is that what happens when someone you trust leaves? ...Were we friends? I want him to come back, even if it's one-sided. At least, out of everyone, he was honest. I could talk to him about things I couldn't ask Axel or Xion. Now I don't know who else to go to with those questions.
This sucks.