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This quarter is getting closer and closer to ending, living high in the moment in which I find myself scared for finals and freaking out over papers. But this quarter is different. You see, it's Wednesday right now. And I just got done looking through a few articles from my WS class for quotes I want to mention in my paper. My paper that is due Monday. I'm working ahead. My God, I'm working ahead! This may be the first "i'm jeff i'm doing a paper and avoiding post" that actually isn't based on me avoiding work. Instead, I'm writing to say I'm actually sort of enjoying the process. I feel oddly relaxed with this quarter's end. Relatively little stress, and a general feeling of optimism. This may be the best feeling I've ever had going into finals week.
The intersection of my enjoying this WS class and my never-before working ahead has really made this a good experience. I feel I'm actually being productive in writing this paper, not just seeing how far I have to crawl through the anus of my brain to find shit worthy of pulling out and handing in. It's just weird for me to feel so much motivation to produce good work for a class like this--or rather, not to feel motivation, but to let that motivation actually work itself into my behavior. I always want to write well, but I usually leave it for so long that I end up spewing out a complete embarassment.
I just feel really good about this quarter ending. In the "you were such a full quarter I'll be glad to see you go" way, but also in the "I know I did my best to succeed this quarter" kind of way. Which is what I've always wanted.
This is so weird.
The intersection of my enjoying this WS class and my never-before working ahead has really made this a good experience. I feel I'm actually being productive in writing this paper, not just seeing how far I have to crawl through the anus of my brain to find shit worthy of pulling out and handing in. It's just weird for me to feel so much motivation to produce good work for a class like this--or rather, not to feel motivation, but to let that motivation actually work itself into my behavior. I always want to write well, but I usually leave it for so long that I end up spewing out a complete embarassment.
I just feel really good about this quarter ending. In the "you were such a full quarter I'll be glad to see you go" way, but also in the "I know I did my best to succeed this quarter" kind of way. Which is what I've always wanted.
This is so weird.