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ugh i guess i have to update again. i'm really only bothering because i have some new icons. like this one, which is probably the best icon in the history of mbp. i should've hit that, too bad she was like eight.
it's been a good week. i'm hanging out with kieran sort of. being around kieran, one of two things always happens: i either have an amazing time with him and remember why i liked him so much in the first place, or i decide that i hate him even more than before and never want to see him again ever in my life. i'm leaning more towards the first this time, but knowing him, he'll fuck it up any minute now. he bought me *nsync's greatest hits, and i got him the special edition of titanic, so i got to spend the day rocking out to "i want you back" and "pop" and then bawling my eyes out over jack and rose. he cried even more than i did, it was ridiculous.
it's kind of nice to realize that yes, i can have a good time sober. for a long time, i didn't think i could, but i can. it's nice to be around someone who's proud of me and encourages me to keep it up. sometimes, i don't remember why i gave it up, and i feel like i just need to take something, anything, but i'm learning that we all have these reserves of strength within ourselves, and if i'm ever in trouble, i can rely on myself, because i'm a lot stronger than i ever knew.
it's been a good week. i'm hanging out with kieran sort of. being around kieran, one of two things always happens: i either have an amazing time with him and remember why i liked him so much in the first place, or i decide that i hate him even more than before and never want to see him again ever in my life. i'm leaning more towards the first this time, but knowing him, he'll fuck it up any minute now. he bought me *nsync's greatest hits, and i got him the special edition of titanic, so i got to spend the day rocking out to "i want you back" and "pop" and then bawling my eyes out over jack and rose. he cried even more than i did, it was ridiculous.
it's kind of nice to realize that yes, i can have a good time sober. for a long time, i didn't think i could, but i can. it's nice to be around someone who's proud of me and encourages me to keep it up. sometimes, i don't remember why i gave it up, and i feel like i just need to take something, anything, but i'm learning that we all have these reserves of strength within ourselves, and if i'm ever in trouble, i can rely on myself, because i'm a lot stronger than i ever knew.