hardships.
i never write in this, but i had something on my mind. im so immature. i wish i could catch every little immature habit i have or every little immature thing i do, but i can't. because in my own mind, im fine the way i am. its been pointed out to me several times that i am immature. i never took it as a bad thing, just something as "oh ill never grow up hahaha." i was so wrong. i started dating somebody older than me, and i soon realized how immature i was. i really do need to change. stop depending on my dad for everything. i was born, brought up, and still am a spoiled little rich girl. its never bothered me until now. im too old for this. i need to learn to keep my swearing at a minimum. i just realized i swear like a sailor. its not lady like at all. in fact it is completely disgusting. it has turned even my boyfriend against me. i have now at this very moment taken a vow to not curse. i said i would keep it a minimum, but i just dont want to curse at all. i need to learn to grow up. stop procrastinating. learn manners. dont yell at my own mother. treat my sister better. fix my self esteem issues. better myself at school. be a better girlfriend. i need help. but i'm the only one who can do that now. i guess im learning from all my mistakes. but lets just hope i learn them quick.