One adventure ends, and another begins. And people are stupid!!
well the play is finally over, and I'm happy in the fact that I don't have to wear tights or sing anymore, but I am actually goin to miss the feelin of bein round everybody and just havin fun doin this shit. but oh well, there's another one startin already. my dad and his family never went to watch the play, which kinda made me sad. There are a couple people from the play who stared to get on my nerves quite a bit, and were really close to me fuckin hittin em. I fuckin can't stand bein broke anymore, and jobs are fuckin hard ti find, especially when you're already working. and I'm sick of people sayin that I had a choice, I could be doin sumthin more constructive like goin to school. I can't fuckin go to school when I have no money, and when I was tryin to find a fuckin place to live, tryin to work two jobs and not sleeping. when you get thronw out and you have no where to go, that's not a choice, that's bein forced to sleep anywhere you can. but it just bugs me when people try to justify what I've been through by sayin I had a choice, when no, actually I had no fuckin choice when the cops come to my house, tell me to leave and no one cares where i go. I don't have any real parents anymore, and everythin I fuckin have I've gotten and made on my own. when i go home I have no one to fuckin talk to, complain or bitch to. I have music, alcohol and usually smokes to fuckin calm me down and get me through. but enough of that shit, i just wanted to say how people should stop fuckin tellin me that i had a choice, when i didn't. I'm just chillina nd doin laundry right now, and thought I'd say a little bit of shit on here. The practical jokes played on people during the last couple shows were fuckin hilarious though. I can't wait till I turn 19, then ain't no one tellin me i can't do shit. I'm 18 and I'm still more responsible then some people. I work, I pay for my own shit, I live on my own (not by choice but still), and I can basically do what I want. Some people forget to realize that. In 39 days I will be 19, and I can't fuckin wait to go out partyin wit people that be older than me. I wanna go to the bar when my buddy DJ's and check that shit out. I'm pretty stoked. I'm not exactly too excited bout some other things though, but hey, I've made it this far might as well keep goin right?