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Just got home, but still wish I could be with you, but I know I'll see you again some other time. Speaking of time, I had a great time with you tonight, it was really amazing just like you. Your kiss gives me a reason for living, each time we kiss, the feeling is so indecribable. You are the first one I ever kissed, thats probably why I never get tired of it. I'll probably look back at this e-mail and say isnt that true. Ok I'm talking way too much, but I'm so happy. I dont if you feel the same way but , I love you,( the only reason I said "i dont know if you feel the same way" is because wendsday on the phone, I said that and all you did is laugh, which made me feel stupid and sad) but anyway, just saying I love you ,and just wondering if you wanted to do something else this weekend, if not thats cool. But I cant wait to see you again. Umm... oh yeah a poem, well ok ill try to think of another one... actually, I cant think of one for once my words cant describe how I feel. In that case, please write back. Remember its the end of the week so I think I can talk online as long as I want, so thats cool. Yeah, wow, I think I wrote more than I said tonight. Hah, Im just a shy kinda person that doesmt know what to talk about, but ill let you know how I feel, just ask. Well again I love you and cant wait to see you again.
Until then, LOVE YA!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Yours truley,
Mack'
PS I think thats why I replied this e mail I love you because I really do love you. And ill say it again I love you.WOW does that feel good. But any way see you later.
You probably think I'm crazy for saying it over and over, as long as you respect me in the end, im good. Maybe I am crazy. ????Maybe???? What do you think?
someone remind me why i threw something like that away?
i am not saying i like tim again....but he was great, and i dont remember what i did to kill that, other than act perfectly normal until i just couldnt take it.
stupid me.....
remind me not to save emails....
sadhks04: alrighty
sadhks04: bye bye
sadhks04: you started that
sadhks04: i ended it
sadhks04: yes that was a unique ending tactic
sadhks04: but it worked
xUnAbLeXtOxCrYx: ummm would you be so kind to post ummmm well never mind
xUnAbLeXtOxCrYx: B's gonna kill me
xUnAbLeXtOxCrYx: lol
sadhks04: o just tell me
xUnAbLeXtOxCrYx: your whole conversation with her
xUnAbLeXtOxCrYx: she wanted to save it
sadhks04: why?
xUnAbLeXtOxCrYx: cause it makes her laugh
xUnAbLeXtOxCrYx: oh i dunno
sadhks04: it makes her laugh
xUnAbLeXtOxCrYx: Qui
sadhks04: do you mean OUI
sadhks04: as in yes
xUnAbLeXtOxCrYx: yes
sadhks04: what now i corrected you!
sadhks04: thats fucked up
xUnAbLeXtOxCrYx: actually
sadhks04: how does it make her laugh
sadhks04: its not supposed to be funny
xUnAbLeXtOxCrYx: yes i had a fuck up
xUnAbLeXtOxCrYx: well it is , but can you stop arguing with me and please post it or no ?
sadhks04: post what?
xUnAbLeXtOxCrYx: your full convo with her and dammit i hate saying things twice listen the first time
sadhks04: i got rid of the box
xUnAbLeXtOxCrYx: hmph fine whatever
sadhks04: well i had to take a leak
sadhks04: sorry
xUnAbLeXtOxCrYx: congrats
sadhks04: yeah it was long over dure
sadhks04: overdue*
sadhks04: wait laugh is in happy
sadhks04: or laugh as in humorous
xUnAbLeXtOxCrYx: humorous
xUnAbLeXtOxCrYx: i guess
sadhks04: thats fucked up
sadhks04: im never talkin to her again
xUnAbLeXtOxCrYx: oh i don't know why
xUnAbLeXtOxCrYx: but she just wanted to save it
xUnAbLeXtOxCrYx: don't ask and argue with me about it okay ?
sadhks04: alright calm down
xUnAbLeXtOxCrYx: then stop trying to argue with me constantly
sadhks04: im gonna ask her though
sadhks04: im not!
sadhks04: im curious
xUnAbLeXtOxCrYx: then stop being so damn nosy
sadhks04: so i asked a question for an answer
sadhks04: o yeah being nosey
sadhks04: it has to do with me
xUnAbLeXtOxCrYx: bah
sadhks04: i have the right to no
sadhks04: know*
xUnAbLeXtOxCrYx: know*
sadhks04: did it before you
xUnAbLeXtOxCrYx: i don't care
sadhks04: didnt think you would
sadhks04: i just never win
sadhks04: so when i do it feels good
sadhks04: im one of those sad asshoels who cant win an argument
sadhks04: assholes*
xUnAbLeXtOxCrYx: so i take it you enjoy being a arguing asshole ?
sadhks04: i didnt say i was an arguing asshole
sadhks04: i said a sad asshole
sadhks04: low life
sadhks04: trash
sadhks04: garbage
sadhks04: meant for recycling
xUnAbLeXtOxCrYx: thats your problem only you can solve and stop putting a guilt trip on everyone
sadhks04: many ways to say it
sadhks04: a guilt trip
sadhks04: im not putting a guilt trip on anyone
sadhks04: i want being serious when i said that
sadhks04: (sad asshole)
sadhks04: wasnt*
xUnAbLeXtOxCrYx: you are constantly trying to make people feel sorry for you
sadhks04: i am not
xUnAbLeXtOxCrYx: pfft yea right
sadhks04: how the fuck would you know
xUnAbLeXtOxCrYx: i observe
sadhks04: if your talkin about the girlfriend thing
sadhks04: thats fuckin low
sadhks04: thats true
xUnAbLeXtOxCrYx: your just upset cause i can read you like a book
xUnAbLeXtOxCrYx: its not that
sadhks04: i havent talked to barbara in a long ass time
xUnAbLeXtOxCrYx: its everything else
sadhks04: read me like a book
xUnAbLeXtOxCrYx: ehhhh maybe a comic book
sadhks04: ahahahaha
sadhks04: corny ass bitch
xUnAbLeXtOxCrYx: i try
sadhks04: ok that was good
sadhks04: ill admit to that
sadhks04: this is a stupid little arguement or fight or whatever it is
xUnAbLeXtOxCrYx: then stop it
xUnAbLeXtOxCrYx: lol
sadhks04: i did
sadhks04: im stopped
sadhks04: ah crap gotta check my email
xUnAbLeXtOxCrYx: well have fun
sadhks04: nope no eamils
sadhks04: emails*
sadhks04: nobody loves me
sadhks04: haha just kiddin
sadhks04: yeah my friend in bulgaria loves me
sadhks04: haha
sadhks04: ok im talking to myslef
sadhks04: so im gonna leave you alone
xUnAbLeXtOxCrYx: ......i wanted to save it because......i laugh at it so i dont get upset over it.....fine
sadhks04: upset over what
xUnAbLeXtOxCrYx: nothing....i am being stupid again
sadhks04: wait has this been you the whole time
xUnAbLeXtOxCrYx: no
xUnAbLeXtOxCrYx: i took a shower
sadhks04: o
sadhks04: well i know why it upsets you
xUnAbLeXtOxCrYx: you probably do
sadhks04: and i probably never shouldve said anything
xUnAbLeXtOxCrYx: its fine
sadhks04: but ive never been one to hide things
xUnAbLeXtOxCrYx: im not really that upset
sadhks04: you know that
xUnAbLeXtOxCrYx: i know
xUnAbLeXtOxCrYx: i am not that upset so its fine....i just wanted to show jes something
xUnAbLeXtOxCrYx: cuz she is my best friend
sadhks04: ok
xUnAbLeXtOxCrYx: so are you still never going to talk to me again
sadhks04: if you laughed at it because its humorous
sadhks04: yes
sadhks04: because thats just messed up
sadhks04: maybe the first half of it was
sadhks04: but torwards the end
xUnAbLeXtOxCrYx: not thats its humerous.....its our typical converastion....we argue the entire time
sadhks04: im not saying anything
sadhks04: lalalalaaaaaaa
xUnAbLeXtOxCrYx: fine
sadhks04: you start it
xUnAbLeXtOxCrYx: fine then i start it..but it happens everytime....and then i wanted to show her that thing about the poem....because....well it explains one thing she just doesnt understand about me
sadhks04: which is?
xUnAbLeXtOxCrYx: why it took me forever to get over you.....and why i couldnt ever just block you and get rid of everything
sadhks04: so your over me
sadhks04: well good for you
sadhks04: im not there yet
xUnAbLeXtOxCrYx: well....i wouldnt say fully....but i try
xUnAbLeXtOxCrYx: not that i hate you
xUnAbLeXtOxCrYx: just...
xUnAbLeXtOxCrYx: it hurts alot sometimes
sadhks04: i confuse you
sadhks04: make reality seem unreal in itself
xUnAbLeXtOxCrYx: yes
sadhks04: one minute i say im over it
sadhks04: then next i dont
xUnAbLeXtOxCrYx: yes basically
sadhks04: i send your emotions on a roller coaster
sadhks04: you have no idea what to do
xUnAbLeXtOxCrYx: ....yes
sadhks04: haha
sadhks04: its called something you know
sadhks04: your gonna have to figure out what it is though
sadhks04: i cant tell you
sadhks04: i hide things
sadhks04: i say stuff so youll move on
sadhks04: and forget about me
sadhks04: be happy
sadhks04: go get a boyfriend and love him to death
xUnAbLeXtOxCrYx: .....heh.....right
sadhks04: but i cant keep it all inside
sadhks04: its not something im good at it
xUnAbLeXtOxCrYx: its not even close to that easy
sadhks04: eventually i have to let it ou
sadhks04: t
sadhks04: you think i keep changing my mind
xUnAbLeXtOxCrYx: it is soo hard to believe you.....but i always do
sadhks04: but im not
sadhks04: my mind is set
sadhks04: on making you happy
sadhks04: you not me
sadhks04: not anyone else
sadhks04: just you
sadhks04: i try to do whati can to make you happy
sadhks04: i stopped talking to you
sadhks04: to make you happy
sadhks04: cause i know things are easier for you when we dont talk
sadhks04: but if there is one thing ive learned
sadhks04: id rather make my life complicated and other peoples lives complicated to talk to the one i would give my life for
sadhks04: then not talk to you at all
xUnAbLeXtOxCrYx: to tell you the truth i have had the worst week ever this week
xUnAbLeXtOxCrYx: and its was nice when you imed me
sadhks04: yeah but tell me
sadhks04: right now
sadhks04: shits compicated
sadhks04: knowing i actually do love you
sadhks04: and fuck no
sadhks04: im not to young
sadhks04: fuck that shit
sadhks04: you are never to young
xUnAbLeXtOxCrYx: i never thought you were too young
sadhks04: most people say they are to young to love
sadhks04: i say you can love someone whenever
sadhks04: even if your 3 years old
sadhks04: that one person that you constantly think about
sadhks04: that always comes to mind when your having a bad time
sadhks04: the one you eish was by your side every moment
sadhks04: wish*
sadhks04: the one you want to kiss and hold forever
sadhks04: is the one you love
sadhks04: its not and infatuation
sadhks04: its not a crush
sadhks04: if thats not love then nothing is
sadhks04: then love is just a figment of our imagination
xUnAbLeXtOxCrYx: how do you ever expect me to know what to say when you awe me with everything you say
sadhks04: i wouldnt expect you to say anything
sadhks04: cause if i was talking to you in person when i said it
sadhks04: id be kissing you right now
sadhks04: by the way i have a new picture of me
sadhks04: of me now
xUnAbLeXtOxCrYx: really?
sadhks04: yup
sadhks04: its got my dad and bro in it too
sadhks04: here ill send it to you
xUnAbLeXtOxCrYx: okay
sadhks04 wants to directly connect.
sadhks04 is now directly connected.
sadhks04:
sadhks04: if you cant remember im the one on the right
sadhks04: the shortest
sadhks04: kindve a big picture
xUnAbLeXtOxCrYx: yeah...i saved it to my comp....so i could see it better
sadhks04: its blurry
sadhks04: but it works if you know how i look
xUnAbLeXtOxCrYx: yeah....its nice
xUnAbLeXtOxCrYx: oh man i could cry right now
sadhks04: well i gotta go
xUnAbLeXtOxCrYx: okay, i will talk to you later
sadhks04: yup
xUnAbLeXtOxCrYx: peace
sadhks04: bye
xUnAbLeXtOxCrYx: bye
sadhks04: o wait
sadhks04: love you
sadhks04 direct connection is closed.
xUnAbLeXtOxCrYx: love you too
Auto response from sadhks04: be back later
(the colored part is amanda talking to him while i take a quick shower)
that one got me.....just do me a favor, remind me not to save emails.
i have about 15 emails like those two.....i want to delete them, but some part of me just wont let me.
i dont want to wake up tomorrow.....but sleep will never come.
merry christmas and a tylenol filled new year,
~bing~