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i got lost today or 'seperated'... whichever fits best
hungover and sleepless
so i pulled my hair and sweat sunscreen into my eyes till the whites turned pink
and screamed for my friends; (or whoever) they weren't even there
sirenFest 2004? fine. just fine.
i heard the songs i wanted to hear live. i saw TV On The Radio/Blonde Redhead/Har Mar Superstar (and got an amazing picture of his sexy sexy hairy hairy chest)
then on the subway home the twenty somethings with their cute everything
right down to their iPod minis and matching bulbous little nalgenes
well, they made me cry because i want that so bad.
i want financial security for the rest of my life and little electronic gadgets that print out/fax out/transfer little things from other compatible gadgets...
and i want daddies old apartment in manhattan (cause he's working from home now)
and wearing mommies patek even though i make fun of her for it's being old fashioned.
i want to be petty. i don't want to fight. i want to be happy and i don't want to need people. i want to buy it all right now... all of my happiness.
i have just spent a day alone with my self and its thoughts.
surrounded by other selves and their thoughts.
it's lonely as fuck
i should have been drunk.
hungover and sleepless
so i pulled my hair and sweat sunscreen into my eyes till the whites turned pink
and screamed for my friends; (or whoever) they weren't even there
sirenFest 2004? fine. just fine.
i heard the songs i wanted to hear live. i saw TV On The Radio/Blonde Redhead/Har Mar Superstar (and got an amazing picture of his sexy sexy hairy hairy chest)
then on the subway home the twenty somethings with their cute everything
right down to their iPod minis and matching bulbous little nalgenes
well, they made me cry because i want that so bad.
i want financial security for the rest of my life and little electronic gadgets that print out/fax out/transfer little things from other compatible gadgets...
and i want daddies old apartment in manhattan (cause he's working from home now)
and wearing mommies patek even though i make fun of her for it's being old fashioned.
i want to be petty. i don't want to fight. i want to be happy and i don't want to need people. i want to buy it all right now... all of my happiness.
i have just spent a day alone with my self and its thoughts.
surrounded by other selves and their thoughts.
it's lonely as fuck
i should have been drunk.