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I would just like to preface this entry by stating that I really really love my parents and everything they do for me...
but WHY can't they just accept me and the decisions I make in my life? Jason and I have been dating for over two and a half years. Obviously we are serious about each other. Its true I've never had another serious relationship but I don't understand WHY I have to have another relationship to know if Jason is the "real deal" or not. I know he is without having another relationship. I know that I love him and want to spend the rest of my life with him without having to go through bad relationship after bad relationship. I consider myself sosososo lucky to have found someone that I have this amazing connection with so early in my life. Why isn't that okay in their mind? Why aren't they happy that Jason treats me well and that I have someone who wants the best for me and makes me so increadibly happy?
I know that I made a LOT of mistakes early in our relationship, and so did Jason, but we are trying to fix those now. We both neglected a lot of our friendships and made some lasting mistakes, but there isn't much we can do about that now except what we are already trying to do. They NEED to get over it. I know that I didn't used to treat Jason the way he should be treated, but I am trying so hard to fix that. My parents think that Jason and I odn't bring out the best in each other, but I think they are wrong. My PARENTS don't bring out the best in us. Their judging and condescending manner is what brings out the worst in both of us. They have added so much extra stress to our lives together and apart. They think that it is us together, but it is their reaction to US that has made it so bad at times.
They are so convinced that Jason and I are going to get married and then ten years from now I am going to realize I've made some horrible mistake and we'll get divorced. I can understand that, I actually used to think so too. But I've changed the way I think. I love Jason so much and I regret just the fact that I used to think like that. I KNOW I won't think that, not if we are happy togehter which I know we will be. But if that does happen (like my parents think it will) then it will happen. And if it is painful and either of us get hurt in the process then FINE. It happens. But I want it to happen. I want to expeirience my life with Jason and not with anyone else. Something good will come of it, something always does. I already have two and a half years of wonderful, amazing memories and experiences and I know I will have so many more years of it.
I hope the Kings beat the Lakers.
but WHY can't they just accept me and the decisions I make in my life? Jason and I have been dating for over two and a half years. Obviously we are serious about each other. Its true I've never had another serious relationship but I don't understand WHY I have to have another relationship to know if Jason is the "real deal" or not. I know he is without having another relationship. I know that I love him and want to spend the rest of my life with him without having to go through bad relationship after bad relationship. I consider myself sosososo lucky to have found someone that I have this amazing connection with so early in my life. Why isn't that okay in their mind? Why aren't they happy that Jason treats me well and that I have someone who wants the best for me and makes me so increadibly happy?
I know that I made a LOT of mistakes early in our relationship, and so did Jason, but we are trying to fix those now. We both neglected a lot of our friendships and made some lasting mistakes, but there isn't much we can do about that now except what we are already trying to do. They NEED to get over it. I know that I didn't used to treat Jason the way he should be treated, but I am trying so hard to fix that. My parents think that Jason and I odn't bring out the best in each other, but I think they are wrong. My PARENTS don't bring out the best in us. Their judging and condescending manner is what brings out the worst in both of us. They have added so much extra stress to our lives together and apart. They think that it is us together, but it is their reaction to US that has made it so bad at times.
They are so convinced that Jason and I are going to get married and then ten years from now I am going to realize I've made some horrible mistake and we'll get divorced. I can understand that, I actually used to think so too. But I've changed the way I think. I love Jason so much and I regret just the fact that I used to think like that. I KNOW I won't think that, not if we are happy togehter which I know we will be. But if that does happen (like my parents think it will) then it will happen. And if it is painful and either of us get hurt in the process then FINE. It happens. But I want it to happen. I want to expeirience my life with Jason and not with anyone else. Something good will come of it, something always does. I already have two and a half years of wonderful, amazing memories and experiences and I know I will have so many more years of it.
I hope the Kings beat the Lakers.