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oh how long it has been. so many things have been happening that my world hasn't stopped spinning.
school is winding down, somewhat self-voluntarily. i'm completely lacking all motivation and drive. 3 more weeks of class and i don't really give a rat's butt. sigh. i guess i have to care when finals come around. i'm so sick of constant stuff to do. i just want to be a sluggard for a few months. wahoo for summer!
emotionally my life has been a psych ward. first i have no emotions at all (apathy), then i'm flooded with superficial happiness and then afterwards with doubts galore. i'm just seeking Joy... and i know where to find it... i think i'm just scared to take it (after all, what am i without turmoil?).
there are so many things i would write... but i do not have the courage for it.
what will it take to bring these walls down?
school is winding down, somewhat self-voluntarily. i'm completely lacking all motivation and drive. 3 more weeks of class and i don't really give a rat's butt. sigh. i guess i have to care when finals come around. i'm so sick of constant stuff to do. i just want to be a sluggard for a few months. wahoo for summer!
emotionally my life has been a psych ward. first i have no emotions at all (apathy), then i'm flooded with superficial happiness and then afterwards with doubts galore. i'm just seeking Joy... and i know where to find it... i think i'm just scared to take it (after all, what am i without turmoil?).
there are so many things i would write... but i do not have the courage for it.
what will it take to bring these walls down?