Mar 26, 2008 16:42
Did you ever have the need to shake someone by the shoulders and scream in their face "Don’t you get it?! I care!!! I say the things I say because I fucking love you!!!"… I didn’t get the memo about it being a sin when you tell someone what they NEED to hear, and not what the WANT to hear. I really wish sometimes that it was possible for everyone at once to take a step back and see the bigger picture. I also really wish that I didn’t always have to be the bad guy when it comes to telling someone that their actions are not exactly a good idea.
Gosh darn it, all I’ve ever done is look out for you! All I’ve ever wanted is for you to be happy, for YOU to live the life that YOU’VE always dreamed, for YOU to make YOUR family proud. YOU YOU YOU!!! Are YOU noticing a trend yet?!?! I am looking out for YOU! And I don’t care if you make the best decision or if your life ends up in ruins, but when all is said and done, just be sure you remember what I said. At that point I won’t say "I told you so", I’ll just be still standing by your side as your friend. With that being said, I don’t know how you could ever think I was anything less than true to you because of who you are.
I try so hard to be a good person. Someone who does the right thing in the end. The voice of reason. The one who thinks ahead when people forget to. Why does that always seem so thankless and criticized? If someone figures out why the people who care the most are the ones who are most stepped on, let me know. I’m yet to figure it out.
Anyway, I’m out. Keith Urban calls, and since Beckie cut me off from cleaning (ok I needed to be cut off) then I have a obligation to obnoxiously sing in my head while staring at the most gorgeous country singer alive.
Later,
Adgie