Serious, dead of night thoughts
What would happen if I actually changed jobs, changed career right now? Would it be viable? Would I still be able to support my family? Would I truly be any happier?
I don't know. And yet the thoughts won't leave my head. I've known for a while now that the latest iteration of my IT job is more difficult than I imagined. Well, that's not entirely true, I can do the work. But the expectations attached to the job are always expanding in ways I'm not sure I can keep up with.
Plus, I'm just plain unhappy. Perhaps it's my lazy streak that wants a less challenging job, but I'm tired of beating myself up over it. I'm not required to hold onto this job to prove something. I think I've already proven something to myself by hanging on about 2 years longer than I thought I would! Just because I can do something doesn't mean I have to do it.
Yeah, heavy thoughts tonight. Need time to think some more!
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