If I could only say it
Why is it always the ones that make you doubt yourself that are the hardest to leave? Why are the ones that make you feel like you will never be enough the ones that keep you hesitating in the doorway? I suppose we want to one day be enough so therefore we stick around waiting for validation.
I am going hooooooooooome for the weekend! An audition trip just seems so exciting and I will see my mom and a couple necessary to see friends. Phoebe, beware, you have no choice but to see me this weekend. Bahahahahahahaha! I wonder how much sleep I will get tonight? Probably not much but that's okee.
So, reviews are coming up soon. I get to stand in front of the whole dance faculty and hear about things that I need to fix and things I have done. As if that weren't enough, I also have to write up a self evaluation with POSITIVE things. Wow. Well, at least I will have something to do on the plane.
Just a warning, I will more than likely not be on aim or check my e-mail all weekend. I kind of want a weekend to heal and just stop criticizing myself all the damn time. Sometimes it's hard to remember how special you are when the people who love you the most aren't around to remind you. I miss so many and I am sure I have cried a bucket of tears for each one. <3
I am going hooooooooooome for the weekend! An audition trip just seems so exciting and I will see my mom and a couple necessary to see friends. Phoebe, beware, you have no choice but to see me this weekend. Bahahahahahahaha! I wonder how much sleep I will get tonight? Probably not much but that's okee.
So, reviews are coming up soon. I get to stand in front of the whole dance faculty and hear about things that I need to fix and things I have done. As if that weren't enough, I also have to write up a self evaluation with POSITIVE things. Wow. Well, at least I will have something to do on the plane.
Just a warning, I will more than likely not be on aim or check my e-mail all weekend. I kind of want a weekend to heal and just stop criticizing myself all the damn time. Sometimes it's hard to remember how special you are when the people who love you the most aren't around to remind you. I miss so many and I am sure I have cried a bucket of tears for each one. <3