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Once more a quick update before I sign off for the night. I'm trying to be upbeat, because they say that is vital for my recovery, but my heart is rather heavy as of late. For those select few who are in the know, you can understand my predicament. I feel like I'm losing my best friend. Actually I kinda am, and it's my choice.
You know when you've reached that point where you are holding onto a dying relationship. People grow, people change, and nothing can turn back time. And at some point you have to stop, and take stock of everything around you. Is it worth it anymore? Is it healthy for all parties involved to keep holding on? Do you want to be the one to break things off? Or do you want to wait and feel your friendship die an agonizingly slow death? Perhaps it is the cowards way out, but I think that this may be less painful for me.
My sister and I had a heart to heart the other night, and some of the things she said got me to thinking. I think maybe she's right. Jeez when did she grow up so fast? When did my little baby sister become such a wise person? I guess I have been blind lately. Blind to myself and unfortunately to what's going on around me.
It is a necessary thing, I believe. It just sucks because it really does hurt. A LOT.
Well now that I have exhausted myself and given myself s tummy-ache over my heartache, I think I am going to go toss and turn in my bed until the sedatives take over.
Caio!
You know when you've reached that point where you are holding onto a dying relationship. People grow, people change, and nothing can turn back time. And at some point you have to stop, and take stock of everything around you. Is it worth it anymore? Is it healthy for all parties involved to keep holding on? Do you want to be the one to break things off? Or do you want to wait and feel your friendship die an agonizingly slow death? Perhaps it is the cowards way out, but I think that this may be less painful for me.
My sister and I had a heart to heart the other night, and some of the things she said got me to thinking. I think maybe she's right. Jeez when did she grow up so fast? When did my little baby sister become such a wise person? I guess I have been blind lately. Blind to myself and unfortunately to what's going on around me.
It is a necessary thing, I believe. It just sucks because it really does hurt. A LOT.
Well now that I have exhausted myself and given myself s tummy-ache over my heartache, I think I am going to go toss and turn in my bed until the sedatives take over.
Caio!