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i dont even know where to start..as of this second, i feel like shit and highly unsocial, so im hiding away in my room...listening to music...i was talking to greg..but i pissed him off, so im assuming he went to bed or something..everyone else is in julies room, and i desperatly want to be with them, but then i dont...i know i wont be able to add to the fun that they are already having so why bother?
next week was slated to be WONDERFUL, simply AMAZING...gregs parents are going out of town for a week, so we were planning to spend the entire week together, it was going to be great..and then i get my play rehersal schedule..practice every night...monday 7-9, tuesday 8:30-10:30, wednesday 7-9, thursday 7-9...oh goody, there goes my social life, and my happiness of being able to fall asleep with greg everynight. i mean, i could still spend nights out there, but its an hour away, so what would be the point? god, im crying again just thinking about it..i want to be with him so badly..and then there is tommorow..his parents are leaving at 8am, so he was planning on having a party tommorow night, i have NO gas in my car and NO money, so that equation equals NO way to get out there..except for andrew..but he is filming tommorow, so yeah..i just threw an idea out to the people in julies room..who knows..i may just pay the 40 dollars it will take to fill my tank..fuck..i have no clue..oh well..i lost my train of thought completly..maybe i should just leave this as it is...*shrug*
out for now--liz