omfg
my mom saw this documentary about human trafficking tonight, and i walked by the room and she yells at me and is like "let me explain this to you!" and i was like, i already know what this is about, i've already read about this shit. and so i got on the computer. and then she came in and actually, literally screamed at me at the top of her lungs about how i wasn't a human being and how i didn't care and that i should look up online how to solve human trafficking. i was like you are so fucking stupid. you think they're going to have a site that says "10 easy steps to stop human trafficking?" wtf is your problem? i can't stop human trafficking, and i already know about it. i've read articles and watched the fucking documentaries and good god, you yelling me about how i have no morals is not going to change me. and then i was like ok, fine, you win, so i have a mental problem. stop bothering me. and she proceeds to yell at me more that she knows i have a mental problem but she doesn't want me to be that way and wtf is wrong with me don't i feel a moral obligation to god for giving me life? and i was like yeah i don't believe in god. and she was like how about just to life? don't u feel like you owe something to your life? and i was like yeah, to make sure my life is as comfortable and happy as possible. she was like but you're so smart why don't you use your intelligence for something good instead of god knwos what you're doing. and for god's sake i'm not that smart she's just ignorant and in denial. she kept screaming at me and so i screamed back and she was like you're a monster. and i told her that trivializing my life isn't going to make me want to help people and if i don't want to help people what's the big deal? it's not my job to be a superhero. now she and my brother are discussing how fucked up and i am.