Redux

[duckondebut]

Quick little fic! I rewrote the last scene and that conversation in 9.13: The Purge according to how a lot of fans wanted it to play out. And then the fall-out if it did.

Warnings: SPOILERS till 9.16. Some lines lifted straight from 9.13: The Purge. Plenty of swearing. Totally self-indulgent ending.

Redux

“I saved your hide back there. And I saved

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[caranfindel]

Oh, hell. There's more of this, right? You can't just leave me hanging here.

[duckondebut]

This was written as a bit of an experiment, so I don't really have plans for more? But I think if I really sat down and thought about it, I could make something of it. (But, honestly, writing a Sam being shut down even more than usual by Dean is depressing.)

Thank you for reading!

[pocochina]

I know I liked this already on Tumblr but I choose to like it again. THIS IS GREAT. I'm 100% sure this is what Dean is thinking to himself and as encouraging that it is that Sam hasn't caved totally, I'd buy it if he had.

Also Sam and Cas should totally run away together. I don't know if Cas is ready to take a stand against Dean yet but I would love it.

[duckondebut]

Thank you! <33

I don't know if Cas is ready to take a stand against Dean yet

Me neither, hence the "self-indulgent ending". I have it in my head that Sam prayed to Castiel, and Castiel thought he'd just check in on Sam, was shocked and confused by what he found, and whisked him away to recover for some time in peace. Like: this gradual dawning on him that there's something not quite right between SamnDean. Plus, he has almost the entirety of the human experience downloaded into his brain, and maybe he'd be able to pick up patterns now and compare with other stories, only he wouldn't quite know what to do with the comparison.

... yeah, I've thought about it quite a bit, but also: ~Sam and Cas running away together~

[quickreaver]

You do not pull punches, do you? I have got to respect that.

I'll admit, I make a conscientious choice to not think super-hard on this kind of stuff. I let Show unspool the way it does (because really, we can't control what the writers write or how they have the characters respond), but if we really parse it out, if we look at it stripped to its core, this could be it.

If (when?) Dean's drinking amps up, and he succumbs to the MoC, and Sam starts looking more and more thankless, this is a reasonable outcome. Self-indulgent or not, it's something to seriously ponder. I felt ... so rocked by the end. Imagining these two people being real.

Potent, lady. POTENT.

[duckondebut]

Thank you for reading! I'll be honest: I was terrified when I posted this here and on my tumblr, but feeling really buoyed by all of the positive responses.

I didn't think too much about it, either? But then there were so many, many posts, from Samgirls and Deangirls alike, about how Sam's words in The Purge were "too harsh" and "pushed Dean too far" and was an "assassination of Dean's character just to hurt him". Then I wondered: what if Dean shut Sam down again, just like he has so many times in the past? And then... the story just flowed from there. Dean's frustrations were actually pretty easy to write, all loud and blaring and shouting, me! me! me!, while Sam's depression, which should be blaringly obvious, is relegated to the background, mainly because Dean refuses to acknowledge his brother's mental health until it has some direct physical consequences (re: most of s7). That's what I tried to capture here

[monicawoe]

Yup. That sounds about right. Well done as always!

[duckondebut]

Thank you so much! <33

[sylvia_locust]

Ooh, this was interesting!

[emmram]

Thank you!